DNA stressing....

I never thought that I would be confused about who my child's father is. I feel like one of them girls off of Maury except the messing around with numerous guys. My child's dad is either my ex or this guy I messed with one time who lives in another city in another state. I bought a DNA test from the store and I'm going to have my ex take it. I will be happy when the wondering is over. I literally can't even look at my daughter and say she looks like him or him. My daughter is almost one years old so it will be nice to finally know which one is the dad. I'm honestly hoping she belongs to my ex only because it would suck if she belong to the other guy when I barely know him. I have known him for almost two years and as long as I have known him we have only really talked through text. We have never been on a date or spent any significant amount of time with each other so it would suck to have a kid by a guy you barely know. At least with my ex he'll be here for her and it would be nice to know that both of my kids come from the same parents. According to the Babycenter calendar app I have on my phone, its telling me that my ex is the one. I'm not sure how ovulation works but I thought women ovulated 2 weeks after the first day of their period. I know on the day after my 2 weeks on the calendar it said that my period started 12-16 days ago and I should be ovulating now or soon and on the calendar it said on my birthday that I should know by then that I was pregnant and I found out two days before so if I have to guess I would say she's my ex's but I still have a what if in my head like there could be a 50-50 chance it could go either way. I pray things turn out the way I want it to I will be disappointed if it doesn't but I'll be happy to finally know the verdict.

Things didn't go as planned...

Its been a month since I last posted. The last post I left was a list of things I had to do for the week. Well it didn't really get done. The part time warehouse job that I was going to work at, I didn't get to go because I couldn't find my driver's license so I missed the opportunity. It sucks because I could have been working by now. I had to send away to get a new one and I have it now so I can try again to get on but first I want to see if I can find something else hopefully closer to home. I applied to a job this morning that is a company that makes shirts. Its a full time position 9:30 pm-6 am and its pretty much around the corner which sounds good to me. The description of the job said that all I would be doing is answering customers emails which sounds like an easy job and a sit down job which is what I want. I wouldn't mind a full time job then that way I'll bring home even more money to pay my debts off plus Christmas is coming up fast so I definitely need money for that. I hope that I will be able to get a job within the next couple of weeks so that I can start paying as much of my debts off until tax time so whatever is left over I can use my tax money to pay the rest off and hopefully my credit score will go up enough by the summer time so I can start looking for a house. I think getting a house will be my next move so I will spend one more year in this apartment then I hope to be moving in a house once the lease is up.

I didn't get to start school this semester unfortunately. Since I had been out for a year, I had to reapply as a returning student. I applied a month ago and I am still waiting to hear back. I hope I can hear something in the next couple of weeks because I also have to apply to the community college as a guest student so I can take my math and anatomy classes and I can't do that until I hear from them plus I think in October you can start registering for Spring classes and I would hate to have to wait until the last minute. So right now while I'm waiting, my main focus is finding a job.