End of February.........

Well it is officially the end of February. It really sucks bcuz in this entire month I still have not been able to get a job and I really, really, REALLY wanted to have a job before it became March. I guess things don't always work out the way you want them to or have planned. I'm still going to stay optimistic and pray that the LORD will bless me with a job before March is over. I guess we'll see what happens. It just makes me feel frustrated to not be able to get a job. What amazes me the most is that I have filled out 24 job applications this entire month. 24!!!! And I don't have anything to show for it. I'm just praying my heart out that I can get a job before March is over. I want to be able to go to school and take some classes this summer and I'm wanting to get my own place before October and I need all the time I can get to be able to work amd save up the money I need for the things I want to do. I can't move on and do the things I want to do without a job. It just saddens me to think I won't get a job soon enough to save the money I need to accomplish my goals. I'm determined to do what I can to get a job its just a little hard when there is not much things to apply to sometimes. But I will keep my faith in the LORD and pray that HE has a plan for me and that everything will work out for me and that I don't have to worry about anything.

HAPPY MARDI GRAS!!!!!!!

Well it is Mardi Gras time and I wish I could have went. I don't have a job or anything holding me back from going right now and I know next year I will. But hopefully one day in the future I will get to go with my friends. I have been to Mardi Gras twice in the past when I was in high school, but didn't really do much as the people there enjoying it. Since I was there more on business than for fun, but me and my friends/family made it fun besides the hard work of having to march in 3 parades, which believe me, depending on the parade it is not easy. We were down there for 3 days and it is along drive but always fun to be around the people I considered my family and I still consider them family even though we don't see or hear from each other much. But those times were great and very memorable. I can't wait to be able to go down there with friends in the future!! HAPPY MARDI GRAS!!!!!

Disappointed...........

Well it looks like I won't be going on that date tonight afterall. I know it sucks but I guess I should be use to disapointment by now. I just wish things could go right for me sometimes. Well maybe some other time me and my favorite guy will go out, but right now, I don't know how things are going to work out between us now bcuz I feel like I'm wasting my time on someone who doesn't have time for me. But I'm usually not one to give up on things especially someone I truly have feelings for. So we will see as time goes how things work out, but I'm going to stay optomistic about this situation and hopefully things will turn out good in the end.

On another note, I am ready for the weekend to be over so I can find out if I have a job or not. I'm hoping on Monday I will be able to say I have a job. If not Monday, then hopefully, Tuesday. But, by this time next week, I hope I can honestly say that I have a job.

Late night........

Well it is 3:30 in the morning and I'm writing this entry from my phone. I have a sidekick 3 and I just got it turned back on after not using it for over a year and realizing how much I missed it. So I was excited about getting it turned on especially since I've had my other phone cut off for a month and texting is the only way I prefer to communicate with people. Now I need to by some accessories for it and the only way I know how is to do it online.

Anyway, I am looking forward to later on today bcuz I'm going on a date with my favorite guy who I barely get to see. We are going to go see Madea so I'm looking forward to that. I just hope my favorite guy and I can start hanging out like we use to. We have only seen each other once in the past 2 months. So I'm hoping things will go back to the way it use to be and we can start hanging out more bcuz I really miss that.

Starting out on a good note........

Well my day is starting out good and I have only been up for a half an hour lol. Well I woke up and decided to look for the phone since it wasn't in its normal place. I found it and see a number on there that called 2 hours before. So thinking it was for a job I called it back and it was for a job that I had applied to a couple of days ago. I talked to the guy and he wants me to come in at 3:30 this afternoon. I was happy but scared at the same time because I don't have any gas in my car and I didn't have the money to put any in, so I was trying to figure out how I was going to make it to the place and back without fear of my car stopping on me. I was at least gonna put the last 4 dollars I had in my bank account in and prayed it would help. Lucky for me, I checked my bank account and my tax money is in there!!!!!! I was shocked when I saw it because I didn't think it would be put in until tomorrow. So now I finally have some money in the bank plus a job interview today so I am feeling good right now. But what would really make me happy even more is if I get the job. I will definately be praying on that.

Stressing Out........

I am stressing out about not having a job. I continue to pray and hopefully by the end of next week I will have something. I have applied to 6 jobs in the past 2 days so I'm praying something will come up soon. I am really hoping I will get something asap because I am so ready to move into my own place. I am just getting frustrated with still living with my mother. As the days go by, the more I want to leave but I can't because I don't have any money. It will be March in a week in a half and I am worried that I won't find anything by then. But all I can do is continue to pray and be optimistic and hopefully the LORD will allow something to come my way.

Waiting for Monday............

Well today is Valentine's Day. Like I said, nothing is happening in the love department for me but at least there is a day I am looking forward to: Monday. Monday is President's Day and I can honestly say President's Day is better than Valentine's Day. I actually will be getting something I like and that is to see my show "The Presidents" on The History Channel. I always watch it when it comes on. It's so fun to learn about the past Presidents. I love watching The History Channel and The Presidents is probably my favoritiest program that they play on there. Luckily for me it comes on twice, in the morning and the afternoon, since I plan on going job hunting Monday morning I will get to see it in the afternoon instead. So I'm looking forward to that. I can't wait!!!!!

It is here........

Well it seems like Valentine's Day is here. I'm glad so now this day can finally be over. As you can tell from one of my previous posts, Valentine's Day really sucks to me. I wish it was just another normal day. The day always makes single people feel more lonelier than what they are and it definately works on me. I just wish I had a guy to bring me things or at least take me out on a date, but that doesn't seem like its going to happen. So I already know I will be stuck in the house all day doing nothing but trying to keep myself company. I hope I don't get too emotional about being alone and start crying. I know I'm not going to be the only one alone on this day but it would be nice to be able to at least hang with a friend or something that doesn't have me staring at the wall all day. VALENTINE'S DAY SUCKS!!!!!!!

A boring night............

Tonight is soooooooooo boring. I am stuck in the house with nothing to do but watch tv. Not my idea of a good time, but at least there was a new episode of Degrassi on tonight so it wasn't a total loss and later on I'll get to watch my other fav. show Psych at 1 since I forgot about it at 10 because I was somewhat watching the new episode of Degrassi. But my friday nights are always sooooo boring. Everybody is out the house but me and it sucks. You would think a 21 almost 22 year old would have better things to do on friday nights and the weekend but for some reason I never do. I feel like all I do is sit in the house and either sleep, get on the computer, or watch tv. Not something every 21 year old normally does on the weekend but that is usually how my weekends go. I feel like I am friendless and I wish it was some way I can make friends so I can have someone to hang out with on the weekends. Not saying that I don't have friends but my best friend I barely see or talk to because she doesn't have a phone or stay in one place for a while, not cool for someone who is 23 and has a kid. And I'm too lazy to go up to her job which is the only way I can basically talk to her. Other people who are my friends are either at school or I only see them on random occasions. I have no boyfriend either which is nothing new so I'm always alone. Sometimes I wish I had a guy in my life so when I'm bored I know that I could have someone to spend time with if not that at least someone to talk to when I am bored. I don't understand why my life is so boring but hopefully one day that will change. I wish it would now because having nothing to do on the weekend is really, really sucky especially if your 22 years old.

The Search Is On..........

Well I'm still on the search for another job. I have found a few prospects so I will be heading to the places on Monday. One job I saw is in Fishers that seems decent, but I have to go all the way out to Lebanon to apply for it. It made me a little mad because I live closer to Fishers, but have to go all the way to Lebanon to apply for the job. That really sucks. Lebanon is in a whole other county and is 40 minutes from where I live. But I'm going to try and make an effort to go out there Monday morning. I need to make an effort to get me a job and get my life together. Hopefully by this time next week I will have got something because I really want a job before March. But I guess we will see when that time comes.

Downtown Indy!!!

One of my favorite places to be at is Downtown Indy!!!! I don't know what it is about Downtown, but it just seems like a special place. I love love LOVE going down there, day or night. It is so fun being down there to me, even when there is nothing to do. Even though there are some not nice looking buildings down there, it has alot of character. The first building you see when you look at Downtown is the Chase Bank Building(formally Bank One) the tallest building down there. I love to learn the history and would go to the library just to get books and its so amazing to see before and after pictures. Seeing pictures from the 1800s compared to what things look like now is just an amazing thing to see. A dream I have of one day fulfilling is getting to actually stay in one of the fancy hotels. My best friend and I use to go what I call "crashing hotels." My favorite one down there is the Conrad(pictured at the top) the highest floor you can go is I think the 6th and that floor has the pool and exercise room. So we would go in there and sit on a machine and watch tv because they have little tvs on the machines with cable. Another place I like is the canal(if you look in the water it may be nasty looking although I haven't been in awhile and I heard they cleaned it months back so I don't know if its nasty looking now) I had the best first date there with this guy and I can still remember it like it was yesterday where we just walked and talked and got to know each other it was great. It was the best date I had been on ever!! But the one thing I'm not to fond of with downtown but I am getting use to is the streets. Its so easy to get down there, but when you want to leave I use to have the hardest time finding my way out plus there are alot of one way streets and it can get confusing. Luckily for me, I got a map from the library so if I ever need help getting out or finding my way around it helps me everytime. I LOVE IT DOWN THERE!!!!!!

Oh well.......

So I went to my job training today and afterwards realized that I won't be taking the job. I know that was a big decision for me to make and I'm glad I made up my mind before I signed any papers. So as much as I hate to say it, now I have to continue on my search for another job. It saddens me to think that for a few days I was so excited about having a job and now I'm declining the offer. The reason why I've decided not to continue with the job is at the training they told us what we were going to be doing which is selling vacuum cleaners. SELLING VACUUM CLEANERS???!!!! I can not believe it. Basically we have to go to people's houses and demonstrate a vacuum cleaner in the hopes that they will want to buy it. I'm not gonna lie, it was the cooloest vacuum cleaner I have ever seen it picks up everything, you can clean your whole house with it, carpets, hardwood floors, walls, ceilings, even your mattresses because we all know as gross as it is whats in our bed. BUGS AND THEIR FECES!!!!! We sleep in it everyday plus our dead skin. I tried to get with it and think I can do this, but then I realized I don't want to go door to door trying to demonstrate a vacuum cleaner. That's not the job I signed up for anyway, I thought I was going to be sitting at a desk answering phones. As much as I need a job right now, I have decided to sacrifice that job in the hopes of finding one I would feel more comfortable with. I mean, nobody wants to do a job they don't feel comfortable with right? So unfortunately I won't be going back tomorrow. But now I definately need to get back to praying and hopefully I will find another job before March. But I hate to have to go through the feeling of not having a job again. It just wasn't for me and hopefully I will find something that is real soon. I know in this day and time it's not good to be picky about a job, but like I said before I don't want to do a job that I am not comfortable doing. I guess the monkey is back on my back and I'm still carrying alot of weight on my shoulders I'm ready to be able to feel comfortable again.

Just a thought.....

Well I am still excited that I have a job. I will be going back for training today at 1pm so that meant I had to wake up early, hence why I'm up now lol. I would usually still be sleep right now. Anyway, I almost scared myself yesterday because before I left my orientation yesterday they told us to call up there between 8 and 8:30 last night to make sure everything was alright and that there was going to be no problem with us working there. So like a dummy I completely forgot to call back. It was after 8:30(8:37 to be exact) and I wouldn't have remembered at all if the phone didn't ring and made me remember. I had to hurry up and run outside to get the number and call. Luckily, everything was okay but I really scared myself that time. So now, it seems like since this is a brand new job and I still really don't know what I will be doing yet, I keep thinking, "What if I don't like this job"?, "What if it isn't right for me"?, I keep thinking that and I just hope everything works out because I don't want to have to look for another job again. I'm blessed to even have this one. So I really hope everything works out and once I know what we are suppose to do and I get use to it then I should be fine.

Still excited

I'm still excited that I finally have a job!!! It is the best feeling to have after 2 months of being unemployed and basically broke I now have a job and its great. I have to go back tomorrow and friday for training then I will be there all next week it is great to know I have somewhere to go everyday besides being stuck in the house. The thing is we have to dress professionally when we go up there and 1.) I don't have that many professional clothes, although I don't think it's anything wrong with wearing the same thing and 2.) I can barely fit any of my dress pants which means I am gaining too much weight even though I start exercising everyday now. I can't even afford to by any new clothes so I am ready to get in the grind of working so I can make some money, I really need it.

The Verdict Is........

Well I called up to the job I interviewed for yesterday to see if they were going to hire me. I was soooooo scared and nervous that I didn't know what the outcome was going to be. I thought about it until I went to sleep earlier(I say earlier because I didn't go to sleep until after 4 this morning). Anyway, before I called I made sure to pray to the LORD up above. Then I called and they told me.......................that they decided to HIRE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That's right I actually have a job and I am soooooo excited I still can not believe after 2 months and all the struggles in between I finally have a job now. So now I don't have to worry about looking everyday anymore and that definately is a great weight off my shoulders. I have to go back tomorrow to learn more about everything else since they only just gave us a general feel of what the job was but didn't really explain much. Now I can shout it: THE MONKEY IS FINALLY OFF MY BACK!!!!! lol. I made sure after I got off in all my excitement to thank the LORD he helped me get this job. Before I went in to the interview yesterday and before I called today I made sure to pray and my prayer was answered after weeks and weeks of praying about getting a job I finally have one and I feel so great now and I have had very low days. Now I can have money and buy things I need and to save up to get my place and to go to school like I want to. I just hope that I will like this job and that everything will work out because right now things are starting to look up in my life.

So...............

So I went to my job interview earlier, well it wasnt really an interview it was a bunch of us who came in and a guy talked to us for awhile about the company we could possibly be working for. We all filled out applications and listened to him talk. He told us to call back up there tomorrow between 9:45 and 10:00 am. I really, really, REALLY pray that they tell me I was chosen. I made sure that before I walked up in the building I prayed to the LORD up above. HE'S the only one I believe that will be able to make it possible for me to get this job. So I really hope all things will work out. I don't know what I will do if I do not get this job. I just want to get this monkey off my back.

Howdy Doo!!!!

Hey!! What's going on everybody!!!!

It is 8:42 in the morning and I can not believe I am up right now. Usually I would be sleep and I wouldn't be up until 11 or 12. So who knows if I will go and lay down now but I might try to attempt in a little while. Anyway, I am a little excited because I have my job interview later on today so I am diffenitely(sp?) ready to go. I just really hope I get this job. Lord knows I need it and it will be a great weight off my shoulders to get this job. I am ready to get this monkey off my back. So hopefully everything works out, it's all I have been thinking about all weekend. I just hope I am blessed enough to be one of the people they choose to hire. I AM SOOOOO BROKE!!!!! Luckily, I just turned in my taxes last night (whooo hoooo!!!!) so I should be getting some money really soon. I can not wait. I have bills that still need to be paid so unfortunately half of my money will go to that. BOOOOOO!!!! Oh well, a job will do me some good.

Family and Valentine's Day

I was wondering if anybody my age that is single thinks about starting a family like I do. I always think about wanting to start a family now. I know I'm still young and have plenty of time but it comes across my mind all the time that I wish I could get married and start a family. I want at least 4 kids so I saythe earlier I start the more I canhave. But I have to find the right guy first but thats all in GOD's hands. Plus there is still alot of things I want to do before I have kids. I'm still wanting to get back in school which probably won't happen until next year and I need a good decent job, as well as needing to move out of my mother's house which will hopefully happen by the end of this year. But I think I have really been having baby fever for awhile now. Its sooooooooo many people my age and people I went to high school with who have kids now and everytime I see someone with a kid or someone who is having one it makes me wish that I could have one too. I know having kids is a big responsibility and it shouldn't be taking lightly but I can't help having the feeling that I'm ready to start having them. At least I know I'm not a teenager and having a kid in high school. I'm blessed to not be one of those statistics. But like I said before its all in GOD's hands and when he feels the time is right for me to have a boyfriend, get married, and have kids it will happen and hopefully I will be ready. I just hope it happens before I turn 30, I always think that if I'm over 30 and am not married and have no kids that its too late. I know thats crazy but thats the crazy thought in my head.

Well Valentine's Day is coming up. BOOOOO!!!!! is what I say. Valentine's Day is always a sucky day in my book. I am officially going to start treating it like a regular day if was just that easy. All the things you can buy at the store for your "loved ones" makes me wish I had someone to buy me something and make me feel special for a day. But who knows when that will ever happen. I'm kinda hoping that maybe this year I will get something special or go on a date. I have a guy who could possibly be my valentine but who knows what will happen. But it always seems to be the same thing every year just me and me alone.

Blah Week

Well so far my week has been boring but its always boring so thats nothing new. I have a job interview on monday! YAY!!!!!! I'm praying my heart out I get the job so my search can finally be over. I have been struggling for 2 months to get a job and I am super broke. I only have $20 to my name (seriously!!!! thats all I have). Luckily since its tax time I will be getting money as soon as I turn it in. So I am looking forward to that. But like I said, hopefully I will get this job. I can not take not having a job and 2 months without a job is long enough especially considering I have no money AT ALL!!!! Except for $20 which I will have to use on monday to put gas in my car to get to the job interview. So like I keep saying I really, really, REALLY need a job like yesterday. SO i am hoping, wishing, and praying my heart out that I get this job. Hopefully everything will work out.

A little about me

Hey all!!!!

My name is Stacee and I live in Indiana. Thats right, GO COLTS!!!!! Anyway, Im 21 almost 22 in March and I decided to start a blog. Right now, not really doing much with my life. I dont have a job at the moment but am looking and applying to soooo many I have lost count. Im also not in school right now, although I wish I were but cant go back to school until I have a job. I am sooooo looking forward to moving out on my own hopefully sometime this year but not until i can get a job. It just seems like there is sooooooo much I want to do and sooooo many goals I want to accomplish but cannot do it unless I have a job. So as you can tell I am soooo desperate to get a job and hopefully GOD will bless me with one soon. I must admit it is not easy being poor and since I have been jobless for the past 2 months I have been poor for awhile. So hopefully I will have a job b4 this month is over. Wish me luck!!!! I will keep my job search posted on here.