Need more lucky dust....

Yesterday, I wrote a post about me getting the full time night job that I started last night. So far its pretty cool. We have only just done introductions and played little games and learned a little about the company so far. We'll see how tonight goes but I sure am getting sleepy. I have been up since about 6:30 yesterday morning and have only had 3 hours of sleep from the time I got in last night since they let us leave at 3 to the time I had to get up for my day job. After tonight, we will be staying until 6 so I don't think I will be getting any sleep until Friday night. Surprisingly, I haven't been all that sleepy. This morning I drank one of the Starbucks cold coffees and I was fine all day at work, wasn't really sleepy or anything. I'm going to have to go get another for tonight and see if that will help keep me awake because I am starting to get sleepy now. If it works for me tonight, I'll just start drinking those from now on.

Now for needing more lucky dust. I got a call today about a job. Luckily, it wasn't anyone calling about a night job since I already have that covered. It was for a day job with the old company I was working for before I started the job I'm at now. I have an interview for it Thursday and its pretty much the same job I'm doing now, although I doubt I'll be doing the exact same thing. The only thing I know is that its Monday-Friday which is what I want of course. No weekends and no holidays and the day after Thanksgiving, Christmas Eve and New Years Eve I would only have to work half a day so it sounds sweet so far. The only thing is I need to know the hours and the pay. Hopefully, the hours are what I have now because I don't want it to interfere with my night job and the pay is more than what I'm getting now since I should pretty much know a lot because I have been working for the same department for going on 6 years so I hope it will be good. I so hope I get it since that means going back to my old company and that's what I want. The company I work for now is cool but I never wanted to leave my old company in the first place but a better opportunity never presented itself before the company I'm at now offered me a job but it will be so great to go back and continue my tenure. So wish me luck!!!

Its November!!...

It is officially November. I can't believe that the year is almost over in 2 months. I have some good news. I got that full time night job that I interviewed for at the beginning of October(well technically it was the end of September) and thought I didn't get, well I got it. I got the call last Thursday and had to leave work early today to go to the orientation at 12. I start tonight at 9:30 and I am ready to get started. The sooner I start, the sooner I can get paid so I am ready. I have it planned out that I am going to take 200 out of every check for my housing fund so I can officially start saving to get a house and hopefully by this time next year I will be able to get one and the rest of my check is going to be spending money and money to pay off the stuff I have on my credit report so I can get my credit score up. So hopefully if all goes well with this job, I'll be able to get my score up and save up enough money in 6 months to be able to house hunt. I'm excited I finally got a second job but scared about not getting enough sleep. I know I am going to be sleep deprived but I go to do what I got to do. I have goals for me and my kids and I really want to get a house for us. I want them to have a place to run around in and have a yard to play in plus I'm sick of going back and forth to apartments. I'll be happy when I get use to this night job because right now I feel like I just want to get ready for bed. So far I been up all day and have only laid down for a little bit but tonight I'll be off at 3 so I'll be able to come home and get a couple hours of sleep before I have to go to my day job and then back to my night so I don't know when the next time I will get to lay down. So wish me luck and hopefully I don't kill myself trying to make a better life for me and my kids. I don't have help so I have to do this all on my own. It would be nice to have a man in my life and he could help out some but since I don't have that in my life. it's up to me to take care of everything. Hopefully, that will change one day but I know it won't be anytime soon.

Beginning of October...

It is October. I can't believe the year is almost over. Less than 3 months and it will be a new year. Well I went to the interview for the full time night job I wanted on Wednesday and I think I bombed the interview. I really don't think I did a good job answering the questions. I hate interviews that ask "Give me an example of a time you had to do this or that". I feel like I can't think of an answer fast enough and start fudging up what I want to say and don't know how to say it right. So I guess I can forget about that job because I never received a call after unless they miraculously will call sometime this week but I won't hold my breath. I had another job interview Thursday for a day job I had applied to weeks ago for a position pretty much doing what I am doing now but it's at my old company that I left to come to the job I am at now but not the same building. I am hoping I will get that job. I think I did a whole lot better during that interview then I did the last because all we did was talk. I never was asked any of those quick think on your feet questions that they usually ask at interviews. So hopefully I am lucky enough to get that job. I think it will be a better opportunity and I know I won't have to work holidays and weekends which is what I have been trying to get in a job forever. Although the job I have now I only work one weekend every 7 weeks is better than every other but I would rather not have to worry about working weekends period. I am kind of ready to leave the job I am at now. I am thankful they hired me when they did and got me out of the crappy job I was doing for way too long but I'm ready to go if I get that job. Hopefully the pay will be even better than what I am getting now. All I can do is wait and hope they call and say I'm hired. I'm sure its going to be awhile before I hear anything. If I know this company it takes about 2 months to get hired. As soon as you apply it takes about a month for someone to call for an interview and then after the interview it takes another month before you know if you are hired or not. So all I can do is wait and hopefully get some good news soon...

DNA stressing....

I never thought that I would be confused about who my child's father is. I feel like one of them girls off of Maury except the messing around with numerous guys. My child's dad is either my ex or this guy I messed with one time who lives in another city in another state. I bought a DNA test from the store and I'm going to have my ex take it. I will be happy when the wondering is over. I literally can't even look at my daughter and say she looks like him or him. My daughter is almost one years old so it will be nice to finally know which one is the dad. I'm honestly hoping she belongs to my ex only because it would suck if she belong to the other guy when I barely know him. I have known him for almost two years and as long as I have known him we have only really talked through text. We have never been on a date or spent any significant amount of time with each other so it would suck to have a kid by a guy you barely know. At least with my ex he'll be here for her and it would be nice to know that both of my kids come from the same parents. According to the Babycenter calendar app I have on my phone, its telling me that my ex is the one. I'm not sure how ovulation works but I thought women ovulated 2 weeks after the first day of their period. I know on the day after my 2 weeks on the calendar it said that my period started 12-16 days ago and I should be ovulating now or soon and on the calendar it said on my birthday that I should know by then that I was pregnant and I found out two days before so if I have to guess I would say she's my ex's but I still have a what if in my head like there could be a 50-50 chance it could go either way. I pray things turn out the way I want it to I will be disappointed if it doesn't but I'll be happy to finally know the verdict.

Things didn't go as planned...

Its been a month since I last posted. The last post I left was a list of things I had to do for the week. Well it didn't really get done. The part time warehouse job that I was going to work at, I didn't get to go because I couldn't find my driver's license so I missed the opportunity. It sucks because I could have been working by now. I had to send away to get a new one and I have it now so I can try again to get on but first I want to see if I can find something else hopefully closer to home. I applied to a job this morning that is a company that makes shirts. Its a full time position 9:30 pm-6 am and its pretty much around the corner which sounds good to me. The description of the job said that all I would be doing is answering customers emails which sounds like an easy job and a sit down job which is what I want. I wouldn't mind a full time job then that way I'll bring home even more money to pay my debts off plus Christmas is coming up fast so I definitely need money for that. I hope that I will be able to get a job within the next couple of weeks so that I can start paying as much of my debts off until tax time so whatever is left over I can use my tax money to pay the rest off and hopefully my credit score will go up enough by the summer time so I can start looking for a house. I think getting a house will be my next move so I will spend one more year in this apartment then I hope to be moving in a house once the lease is up.

I didn't get to start school this semester unfortunately. Since I had been out for a year, I had to reapply as a returning student. I applied a month ago and I am still waiting to hear back. I hope I can hear something in the next couple of weeks because I also have to apply to the community college as a guest student so I can take my math and anatomy classes and I can't do that until I hear from them plus I think in October you can start registering for Spring classes and I would hate to have to wait until the last minute. So right now while I'm waiting, my main focus is finding a job.

Knock the week out...

I am so ready to get this next week over. It kind of seems like it will be a busier week than normal. First, I'm ready to get this weekend over because I have to work. It has been nice not having to work weekends but now I have to. I'm glad its every two months and not every other week like my last job. The one thing I'm looking forward to is getting chinese food from one of my favorite carry out places. I rarely get to go since I never have the time and the distance is far from where I live so I never get to go unless I have the time. I haven't been since the end of February or the beginning of March so its been months. After the weekend, the rest of the week I have my adviser appointment so I can schedule my classes and hopefully get my books, I'll have my off day from working the weekend on Wednesday so if I have the money I want to get my hair done. I haven't had my hair done in over a year and I want it nice and straight and I need my ends trimmed. I have to take my daughter to her gymnastics class since that's started back. Once this week is over, it will finally be back to school.

Looks like I have something....

Well I think I have a part time job now. Its a warehouse job. Which kind of sucks because it would have been nice to get a job where I didn't have to be on my feet the whole time but then again, I guess its better that way so I'll be awake. I know I'm not going to be getting much sleep. The hours are 11pm to 5am Monday-Thursday. So I know I will be very short on sleep because once I get off I have to go home and get ready for my day job. School will be starting in a week so throw that in the mix too. I figured I'm going to have to take a day off from my day job at least once every couple of weeks just so I can sleep. I will be carrying my backpack to my day job everyday so that if I get any free time before its time to go I can do some school work. I have to get it in whenever I get the chance. I know I'm going to wear myself out but hopefully my body will get use to it after awhile. I am ready to start. I have an orientation thing to go to next Wednesday so I hope to know then when I start. I sure do need to start asap. I'm just ready to be able to make more money so that way I can use the money from my day job to pay off debts I have and to bring my credit score up. Wish me luck on this journey of little sleep...

2 weeks to go....

School starts back in two weeks and I can't wait. I'm just ready to go back and work my butt off. I still have to wait until next Tuesday to see my adviser and register for my classes. Hopefully I'll be able to get my books too while I'm down there. I'll be taking 3 classes a semester except for one I'm doing 4 so I'm hoping it won't be too bad and I can make it through.

Job search continues...

I am still looking for a part time job. I didn't think it would be this hard to find a night job. You would think it would be plenty of night jobs around but I am having a hard time finding them. I'm not giving up though. I am looking everyday so hopefully something will come up. I wish I could just find me a desk job somewhere. I'm sure I'm going to have to get a job where I have to be on my feet the whole time which sucks since my full time job that's what I'm doing so why would i want another job to do that but I don't think I'll have much of a choice.

I also have decided to start looking for full time jobs in the field that I'm going to school for. I'm not looking for another job I am okay where I am at for right now but I figured it wouldn't hurt to look and if an opportunity came up, I would be stupid not to take it. So I'm going to apply to what I can and if I'm lucky someone might hire me but if not, I'm cool with it. I'm not too much in a rush to move on.

Wish it could be like the movies...

Sometimes I wish my life could be like a romantic movie. I must admit I still kind of have a thing for my ex. I don't know if that makes me stupid or not. Even after everything we have been through I still have a little soft spot for him. I know we haven't been together in over 2 years now and he has moved on but sometimes I wish he would come to the realization that he is still in love with me and wants to be with me and would do everything in his power to prove to me that he loves me and would do anything to be with me and make our family work. I really miss having my best friend around. I have yet to meet a guy who I feel comfortable around enough to think of as a best friend. It sucks when you can't be with the person you want. I guess life can't be like the movies all the time.

Great news!.....

It's official!! I will be going back to school this fall. I just checked my email and my appeal was accepted. I'm so excited! I thought it would take a while to hear back but they sent an email Tuesday saying they received it then sent an email Wednesday saying it was accepted. It all took less than a week. I can not wait to start back. It said that I have to get a 2.0 gpa to be able to get my financial aid for the spring semester. This is my chance and I'm going to try not to blow it. I'm telling myself I better enjoy this month because once school starts back that's going to be my main focus and I know I won't be getting a lot of sleep. I am determined to come out with a degree. I have two kids depending on me to give them a better life and I plan on doing that no matter what. Sleep can wait. I'll sleep after I graduate. I do not plan on working a job living check to check the rest of my life. I want a career and to have a place I love to go to and to buy a house one day. I so can not wait! I have been out of school for a year now and I'm ready to get back to it again. I'm going to try my darndest not to screw up this time around.

2 years alone...

Well it's been 2 years since me and my ex broke up and I can't believe I am still single. I don't really have any men in my life. I wouldn't have thought I would have been single this long. If anything I thought me and my ex would have worked things out and got back together but that never happened. It sucks being alone all the time. No one to talk to, go out with, spend time with, laugh and have fun with, nothing. I realized the other day that one of the reasons I took my break up with my ex so hard was because he wasn't just my boyfriend but my best friend too. When I lost one, I lost the other. He was truly and honestly my best friend. We use to have fun together. Make each other laugh, joke around, high five and chase each other around. I really miss that. I hope the next guy I'm with I will have that with. Not just a boyfriend but a best friend I can feel comfortable doing anything around. Sometimes I feel like I'm going to be alone forever. 2 years has gone past so let's see how much more time goes past until I'm not alone anymore.

It's July....

I thought I would post since I haven't in 2 months. The job is still going great. It is a complete change from my last job and I am thankful for it. I love a job where you can go in and do what you have to do, chill out when your done and then leave when its time to go. No bosses breathing down your back and all the employees actually get a long. No fights and no telling as far as I know. I haven't had to work a weekend yet and its been nice but that's about to change in a couple weeks.  I will officially start working weekends in August. I can honestly say I don't feel too bad about it and I don't like working weekends. I only have to work one weekend every 2 months so I can't complain since it's better than every other and I know I'm only going to have about 2 hours worth of work both days so I'll be sitting around doing nothing unless I'm getting calls.

I'm trying to get back into school starting this fall and I hope I will be able to. I sent in my appeal letter for my financial aid on Friday so now I'm just waiting to hear back and I hope it's good news. I am ready to go back and I need my financial aid to be able to, without it, I'm not going to be able to go back because I can't pay out of pocket. I will probably have to enroll in another school if I can't get it back and I don't want to do that. I want to stay where I am. If I get to go back, I can forget about getting a lot of sleep because I will be pulling all nighters to make sure I'm getting my assignments done. I am determined to do better and get through school and graduate. I'm ready to get a good paying job so I don't have to live paycheck to paycheck and to buy a house for me and my kids so we can get out of apartments. I just hope everything works out for me.

A month later...

Its been exactly a month since I last posted. My daughter is now taking her gymnastics class and a dance class which combines both ballet and tap. Next month, she will be taking two dance classes, gymnastics and swim lessons. She has a more busy life than I do. I found a place that offers music lessons in violin, viola, cello, and piano starting at age 3. I want her to learn violin and piano. I say the earlier the better. I just need to find out what all I need to do and the cost and times they offer lessons.

Well like I had stated in a previous post, I am ready to start dating again. It has been 2 years that I have been single and I am ready to get back out there and hopefully find the man of my dreams. I'm actually trying to give the guy who lives 3 hours away a chance. I'm thinking about dating him even though I am apprehensive about us living in different places but I'm sure we can make it work. He said he was planning on moving down here one day so we'll see what happens there. The one thing that interests me about him is the fact that we have been talking to each other for over a year and he is still interested in me even though I wasn't trying to give him the time of day for the longest time. I just hope he is an honorable guy and wouldn't lie to me or anything. From what I know he seems like a good guy, goes to church, is at church all the time because he does some work for them. I'm hoping he is a responsible guy. He seems to have a good job and the thing I like the most is that he is older than the other guys I'm use to. Right now, I'm just looking forward to dating, hanging out, getting to know each other better and having fun.

More Opportunities....

I want my kids to have more opportunities in life than I had. I have my daughter signed up for gymnastics and dance classes. I also plan on getting her involved in other things as she gets older. I might sign her up for ice skating lessons one day then music lessons. I want her to learn how to play the violin and maybe trumpet or some woodwind instrument. The only problem I have with that is finding a place that offers music lessons. When she's a little older I might get her involved with sports like volleyball and softball. I have all this stuff I want to get them involved in so that way they will grow up knowing how to do something and have a skill. Whether its gymnastics, dance, ice skating, music or sports. They will be an expert at something. I just want them to be in different activities and do things I never got to do as a kid. My mom never put me in activities when  was a kid. I learned how to play an instrument in middle school and if I hadn't then I wouldn't know how to do anything. I am excited to see what they will grow up knowing how to do.

Just some thoughts....

I haven't posted in 2 months so here's a few thoughts. Last month my daughter turned 3 years old. I can't believe she is 3. I think she had a good birthday. She had 4 cakes! One for school, one at home and two at her grandparents house for her birthday party. My birthday also passed and I can't believe I am so close to being 30 years old. It feels weird to even think that. I feel like I want to stay young forever. It kind of sucks that I'm not thinking about getting married since I am so close to 30 but I'm sure I will get there one day. I keep thinking that I have been single for almost 2 years! I haven't been in a relationship or anything since my ex. It was a part of me that held on to hope that one day me and him would work things out and get back together but I guess I was wrong. I can honestly say it sure would have been nice to have a good man in my life for me and my kids. I'm sure it will happen one day but it sure isn't easy taking care of two kids on my own. I didn't even get to rest after I got out the hospital from having my baby. I was out and about running errands and taking my daughter to school. It would be nice to be able to go out on dates but I have no one to go out with. Although I did meet a guy at work who I'm not too sure about. Plus after all the hell I went through with my ex I'm not looking forward to putting myself back in that situation again. I still have days where I cry because it is taking me a long time to get over everything I been through. Sometimes I can't think about it without wanting to cry. The pain is still deep inside me and is taking long to get out. I feel that everyday I'm getting better as time goes on. There was a point when I cried almost everyday so I'm making progress. I do pray that the lord will bless me with a good man who won't treat me bad and put me in a bad place like my last relationship. It's too bad my ex isn't a good guy. He isn't even there for my daughter. He comes and gets her every other weekend and once he brings her home he's not heard from again until the next time he picks her up. I think it sad. If he cared he would at least call or text every couple of days to check on her but he doesn't. He is so lame and the sad thing is he probably thinks of himself as a great dad and he's not. Too bad he can't see what I see.

Going good so far....

Today was my second day on the job and it is going good. I like my job its pretty simple. All I'm doing is stocking rooms. I only have to do one floor and it lasts me the whole day, although that will probably change once I get use to doing it everyday. I haven't met many of the other employees yet because I don't see them since I work on my floor alone. I am picking up on what I'm suppose to do easily it isn't difficult at all. I will be happy when I have been there for awhile and know my way around. I only know how to get to where our office is, the cafeteria, and the 6th floor. Not familiar with the rest of the place but hopefully as time goes by I will get a chance to figure it out. One thing that sucks is I haven't got my work ID yet. I took the picture for it 2 weeks ago I would have assumed I should have had it on my first day. For now, I'm walking around with a stupid visitor pass. I think its dumb, I'm an employee walking around with a visitor pass. I can't wait until I finally get my badge. I kind of like the food they have. I prefer the breakfast but over all, breakfast and lunch, is better than my last job. All of there food was always premade, from the eggs to the burgers, but up at my job there food is made to order. If you want a burger, they will make it right there in front of you. But like I said, I prefer breakfast. They have French toast and I love me some French toast. Its my favorite thing to eat for breakfast and they make it right there in front you as you order it not have it sitting there or awhile. You couldn't get French toast at my old job. I also like the fact that as I'm going to work in the morning, it gets light out. Its nice because I'm not use to it since I'm use to getting out the house at 4 in the morning. I'm going to try and see if I will be able to come in early temporarily so I can keep my baby at home instead of having her go to some random babysitter's house. I have been lucky this week that my mom has only been working half days so she has been getting her in the afternoons but I don't know if that will be over after this week or not. Hopefully I will be able to unless there is a reason why I can't but it would only be temporary until I can get my baby in the same place my daughter is. I have nothing to complain about things are going good right now and I am ready to start getting paid I'm sick of being broke.

Tomorrow is the day...

I start my new job tomorrow. Of course I'm scared and nervous but I'm also excited to start something new. The thing that pissed me off was that our uniform has to be khaki pants. I never knew it would be so hard to find khaki scrub pants. You can find scrub pants in any color except khaki it seems. It figures the color we needed was the hardest one to find. I did eventually find some so I'm good to go. I just hope the day and the week goes by smoothly. We'll see how it all works out. I'm just thankful that I have another job and that I will be making a little bit more than what I was making. I hope there are cool people up there. That is one thing I will miss about my old job is the cool people I got to meet and get to know. Hopefully everyone is nice and doesn't cause problems.

Valentine's Day....

Well Valentine's Day has came and left and of course I spent it alone. It seems like I am always alone all the time. Will I ever find that special someone? It seems like everyone has someone but me. The guy who I thought I would have something with that didn't work out because he went back to his kid's mom again. I knew I wouldn't have a chance. I figured he would try and work things out with her and I knew I never had a chance. It is what it is. There's nothing I can do but to go on with my life. It totally sucks being single especially when Valentine's Day comes around then you see all these pictures of what people get and giving their appreciation to their loved one and I don't have anyone to be happy to be in love with or anything. I will be so happy when that day comes when I am not alone anymore it totally sucks. I hate it so much.

Didn't think I would feel that way....

Well I made it through my last day of work. I thought I was going to be super excited and ready to bust out of that place but I felt the exact opposite. I felt a little sad and anxious because I didn't want the day to end. I knew when the day was over that it was going to be all over. The whole day I kept thinking this is the last time I'm going to do this, the last time I'm going to do that, the last time I'm going to be here. As much as I'm glad to be gone, it sucks to leave because I'm so use to being there and familiar with everything. I'm looking forward to starting my new job but not looking forward to being the new person. I just hope I won't have to deal with the stuff I did when I started my last job. I had so many people come up to me asking me if I was new. But its all over now. I am officially done with that job after 5 years. I still can't believe it but I know its time for me to move on. I just hope this job is nothing like my last job.

This is it...

Today is my last day at my job after 5 long years. I am happy that this day is finally here but it is sad because there is a lot of cool people that I'm going to miss. I am looking forward to starting my new job but not looking forward to being the new person. I just hope I don't have to go through what I went through when I started my old job and have to deal with people asking me if I'm new. Lucky me I don't have to go in until Tuesday since Monday is a holiday to them so I will get a three day weekend. I just hope this is the beginning of good things happening in my life and I hope that this job does not turn out like my last job and that I will somewhat like it and not hate and start dreading to go in everyday. I will be happy when I can get my baby in the same child care place as my older daughter. Right now, she's going to have to start going to some lady's house until I can get her in and I hope it won't be for too long I will at least try to do it for a month. I would rather have my grandma keep her but she has to be at work at 3 and I won't get off until 4:30 and everyone else works days so there is no one to depend on that's the one downfall about leaving my job is that I got off early enough that she didn't need a babysitter. I'm hoping I can work something out with my job to where I will be able to maybe come in early so I can leave early. Maybe after a couple weeks and I have been there long enough to know what I will be doing. I hope they will be able to work with me so that way she will only go to that babysitter for a couple of weeks then I can get my grandma to keep her again until I can get her in with my daughter. I hope it won't take long. I'm hoping by the end of March everything will work out. Another thing I am worried about is finding somewhere there to pump since I am breastfeeding. At my old job it wasn't a problem because I knew where to go but I don't know where to go at my new job so I will ask when I get there and hopefully I will have time to do it. We only get half hour lunch breaks so I don't see how I would have time to eat and pump. I had hour lunch breaks at my old job so this is going to be a transition but I'm ready for something new. I will be happy when I'm not considered the new person any more.

It's official!!......

I got the job!!! You do not know how happy I am. I waited all week to get the call and I finally got it. I was just thinking about it earlier at noon. I was going to wait until 4 for them to call because I figured they wouldn't be calling after that. Well I got the call right before it turned 4. I am so excited. I can't believe I finally got another job and now I can leave that stinking job I have been at for 5 long years. It has been a long time coming. I have been job hunting for over 3 years and I still can't believe it took so long but I am glad the search is finally over. I don't have to look and apply to any more jobs and have to worry about if anyone is going to call me. That is a great weight lifted off my shoulders. Now all I have to do is wait to start. I start February 16th and I go back to my old job on the 2nd so that will be 2 weeks. I feel lucky that I got all the requirements that I wanted in a job. Its Monday-Friday except for the occasional weekend which is every 5th weekend, 8-4:30 and the pay starts at $12.50 an hour which is more than what I'm making now so I am happy and can't complain. So far this year is starting off good I hope it continues to get better.

Hopefully some good news.....

On Monday, I had my job interview. It was nice to finally get one after all the jobs I had applied to. I thought it went well. I was interviewed by four of the team leads at the same time. It was a little nerve wrecking going in but it actually wasn't bad. Now I'm still waiting to hear back. I don't see why I wouldn't get the job I feel I am more than qualified for it. The waiting for a call part sucks. I wish I could get a yes or no answer at least the next day after my interview. I hate waiting days wondering if they are going to call me with good news. It's about to be Friday now and the whole week has gone by without a word. I am hoping I will hear some news Friday to end the week with some good news. I just hope everything works out. I really want this and I would hate to have to continue looking when this job is perfect and I have the experience. It actually has all my requirements that I want in a job. The hours are 8-4:30 and it's Monday through Friday. Although I would have to work the occasional weekend every 5th weekend which is fine with me it's a lot better than every other weekend. I can only assume that the pay would be good but I won't know until I am offered the job. I so hope I get it. I pray pray pray pray pray that the job is mines. Hoping I get some good news by the end of the day Friday. I just want things in my life to start getting better and this would be the first step...

Hoping for some luck.....

Tomorrow I have a job interview! I can't believe I finally have an interview somewhere. I hope it goes well. I am in need of a better job. The crazy thing is it's a job in the same department that I already work for only at a different company. I think I have a good chance of getting hired since I have 5 years experience in the department. If I get hired, I hope the pay is good. That is what I want more than anything. I have two kids to take care of and the money that I'm making now is not enough. It's hard to save money when you're not making enough. I'm also hoping that it is Monday-Friday although I won't hold my breath but it would be awesome. I hope that I can get paid decently with the experience I have. I don't think I should get paid like any regular person I should get paid like someone with previous experience. We'll see what happens. I'm looking forward to it. It's been a long struggle job hunting, applying for jobs, hoping for someone to call me for an interview. It has been an over 3 year struggle and I hope the struggle is over. I hope to get some good news by the end of this week.

A New Year.....

It is officially a new year. We are 12 days into the year and so far I can't complain. I am hoping that all the bad and negative stuff that I have had to deal with the past 2 years will stay in the past. I am still job hunting so far no call backs except for one and I need to get a hold of the lady tomorrow to see what she is talking about since I haven't answered or called her back yet. It's a little too early to say but I might have a guy in my life. I'm sure I have posted about him before in the past but its the guy I use to work with. I have known him over 5 years now and we have been attracted to each other for as long as I have known him but we have never been together because life got in the way and other relationships but we might actually give it a try. So far we have been texting each other everyday for about a week and we talked on the phone for 4 hours last night. Now it seems like all I do is think about him and I'm sure he does the same thing. I think the cool thing that we have in common is that we both have daughters the same age. I think it would be nice for us to have our daughters play together and I would like for my daughter to have someone outside of school her age to play with. I'm hoping things work out. It would be great to finally have a man in my life. I have been single for a year and a half I feel its time for me to get back out there. I think I feel comfortable of the fact that he has kids. I would feel awkward being the one with the kids. I also need to start looking for another dance school for my daughter. The one I had her in I don't think is going to work with my work schedule since it seems like the classes are all held during the morning and early afternoon. We'll see what this year will bring. I hope by the end of this year I will have a better job with better pay and hours and a good man in my life. Also, I hope I can get back in school. Time will tell.....