Valentine's Day....

Well Valentine's Day has came and left and of course I spent it alone. It seems like I am always alone all the time. Will I ever find that special someone? It seems like everyone has someone but me. The guy who I thought I would have something with that didn't work out because he went back to his kid's mom again. I knew I wouldn't have a chance. I figured he would try and work things out with her and I knew I never had a chance. It is what it is. There's nothing I can do but to go on with my life. It totally sucks being single especially when Valentine's Day comes around then you see all these pictures of what people get and giving their appreciation to their loved one and I don't have anyone to be happy to be in love with or anything. I will be so happy when that day comes when I am not alone anymore it totally sucks. I hate it so much.

Didn't think I would feel that way....

Well I made it through my last day of work. I thought I was going to be super excited and ready to bust out of that place but I felt the exact opposite. I felt a little sad and anxious because I didn't want the day to end. I knew when the day was over that it was going to be all over. The whole day I kept thinking this is the last time I'm going to do this, the last time I'm going to do that, the last time I'm going to be here. As much as I'm glad to be gone, it sucks to leave because I'm so use to being there and familiar with everything. I'm looking forward to starting my new job but not looking forward to being the new person. I just hope I won't have to deal with the stuff I did when I started my last job. I had so many people come up to me asking me if I was new. But its all over now. I am officially done with that job after 5 years. I still can't believe it but I know its time for me to move on. I just hope this job is nothing like my last job.

This is it...

Today is my last day at my job after 5 long years. I am happy that this day is finally here but it is sad because there is a lot of cool people that I'm going to miss. I am looking forward to starting my new job but not looking forward to being the new person. I just hope I don't have to go through what I went through when I started my old job and have to deal with people asking me if I'm new. Lucky me I don't have to go in until Tuesday since Monday is a holiday to them so I will get a three day weekend. I just hope this is the beginning of good things happening in my life and I hope that this job does not turn out like my last job and that I will somewhat like it and not hate and start dreading to go in everyday. I will be happy when I can get my baby in the same child care place as my older daughter. Right now, she's going to have to start going to some lady's house until I can get her in and I hope it won't be for too long I will at least try to do it for a month. I would rather have my grandma keep her but she has to be at work at 3 and I won't get off until 4:30 and everyone else works days so there is no one to depend on that's the one downfall about leaving my job is that I got off early enough that she didn't need a babysitter. I'm hoping I can work something out with my job to where I will be able to maybe come in early so I can leave early. Maybe after a couple weeks and I have been there long enough to know what I will be doing. I hope they will be able to work with me so that way she will only go to that babysitter for a couple of weeks then I can get my grandma to keep her again until I can get her in with my daughter. I hope it won't take long. I'm hoping by the end of March everything will work out. Another thing I am worried about is finding somewhere there to pump since I am breastfeeding. At my old job it wasn't a problem because I knew where to go but I don't know where to go at my new job so I will ask when I get there and hopefully I will have time to do it. We only get half hour lunch breaks so I don't see how I would have time to eat and pump. I had hour lunch breaks at my old job so this is going to be a transition but I'm ready for something new. I will be happy when I'm not considered the new person any more.

It's official!!......

I got the job!!! You do not know how happy I am. I waited all week to get the call and I finally got it. I was just thinking about it earlier at noon. I was going to wait until 4 for them to call because I figured they wouldn't be calling after that. Well I got the call right before it turned 4. I am so excited. I can't believe I finally got another job and now I can leave that stinking job I have been at for 5 long years. It has been a long time coming. I have been job hunting for over 3 years and I still can't believe it took so long but I am glad the search is finally over. I don't have to look and apply to any more jobs and have to worry about if anyone is going to call me. That is a great weight lifted off my shoulders. Now all I have to do is wait to start. I start February 16th and I go back to my old job on the 2nd so that will be 2 weeks. I feel lucky that I got all the requirements that I wanted in a job. Its Monday-Friday except for the occasional weekend which is every 5th weekend, 8-4:30 and the pay starts at $12.50 an hour which is more than what I'm making now so I am happy and can't complain. So far this year is starting off good I hope it continues to get better.

Hopefully some good news.....

On Monday, I had my job interview. It was nice to finally get one after all the jobs I had applied to. I thought it went well. I was interviewed by four of the team leads at the same time. It was a little nerve wrecking going in but it actually wasn't bad. Now I'm still waiting to hear back. I don't see why I wouldn't get the job I feel I am more than qualified for it. The waiting for a call part sucks. I wish I could get a yes or no answer at least the next day after my interview. I hate waiting days wondering if they are going to call me with good news. It's about to be Friday now and the whole week has gone by without a word. I am hoping I will hear some news Friday to end the week with some good news. I just hope everything works out. I really want this and I would hate to have to continue looking when this job is perfect and I have the experience. It actually has all my requirements that I want in a job. The hours are 8-4:30 and it's Monday through Friday. Although I would have to work the occasional weekend every 5th weekend which is fine with me it's a lot better than every other weekend. I can only assume that the pay would be good but I won't know until I am offered the job. I so hope I get it. I pray pray pray pray pray that the job is mines. Hoping I get some good news by the end of the day Friday. I just want things in my life to start getting better and this would be the first step...

Hoping for some luck.....

Tomorrow I have a job interview! I can't believe I finally have an interview somewhere. I hope it goes well. I am in need of a better job. The crazy thing is it's a job in the same department that I already work for only at a different company. I think I have a good chance of getting hired since I have 5 years experience in the department. If I get hired, I hope the pay is good. That is what I want more than anything. I have two kids to take care of and the money that I'm making now is not enough. It's hard to save money when you're not making enough. I'm also hoping that it is Monday-Friday although I won't hold my breath but it would be awesome. I hope that I can get paid decently with the experience I have. I don't think I should get paid like any regular person I should get paid like someone with previous experience. We'll see what happens. I'm looking forward to it. It's been a long struggle job hunting, applying for jobs, hoping for someone to call me for an interview. It has been an over 3 year struggle and I hope the struggle is over. I hope to get some good news by the end of this week.

A New Year.....

It is officially a new year. We are 12 days into the year and so far I can't complain. I am hoping that all the bad and negative stuff that I have had to deal with the past 2 years will stay in the past. I am still job hunting so far no call backs except for one and I need to get a hold of the lady tomorrow to see what she is talking about since I haven't answered or called her back yet. It's a little too early to say but I might have a guy in my life. I'm sure I have posted about him before in the past but its the guy I use to work with. I have known him over 5 years now and we have been attracted to each other for as long as I have known him but we have never been together because life got in the way and other relationships but we might actually give it a try. So far we have been texting each other everyday for about a week and we talked on the phone for 4 hours last night. Now it seems like all I do is think about him and I'm sure he does the same thing. I think the cool thing that we have in common is that we both have daughters the same age. I think it would be nice for us to have our daughters play together and I would like for my daughter to have someone outside of school her age to play with. I'm hoping things work out. It would be great to finally have a man in my life. I have been single for a year and a half I feel its time for me to get back out there. I think I feel comfortable of the fact that he has kids. I would feel awkward being the one with the kids. I also need to start looking for another dance school for my daughter. The one I had her in I don't think is going to work with my work schedule since it seems like the classes are all held during the morning and early afternoon. We'll see what this year will bring. I hope by the end of this year I will have a better job with better pay and hours and a good man in my life. Also, I hope I can get back in school. Time will tell.....