Looks like I have something....

Well I think I have a part time job now. Its a warehouse job. Which kind of sucks because it would have been nice to get a job where I didn't have to be on my feet the whole time but then again, I guess its better that way so I'll be awake. I know I'm not going to be getting much sleep. The hours are 11pm to 5am Monday-Thursday. So I know I will be very short on sleep because once I get off I have to go home and get ready for my day job. School will be starting in a week so throw that in the mix too. I figured I'm going to have to take a day off from my day job at least once every couple of weeks just so I can sleep. I will be carrying my backpack to my day job everyday so that if I get any free time before its time to go I can do some school work. I have to get it in whenever I get the chance. I know I'm going to wear myself out but hopefully my body will get use to it after awhile. I am ready to start. I have an orientation thing to go to next Wednesday so I hope to know then when I start. I sure do need to start asap. I'm just ready to be able to make more money so that way I can use the money from my day job to pay off debts I have and to bring my credit score up. Wish me luck on this journey of little sleep...

2 weeks to go....

School starts back in two weeks and I can't wait. I'm just ready to go back and work my butt off. I still have to wait until next Tuesday to see my adviser and register for my classes. Hopefully I'll be able to get my books too while I'm down there. I'll be taking 3 classes a semester except for one I'm doing 4 so I'm hoping it won't be too bad and I can make it through.

Job search continues...

I am still looking for a part time job. I didn't think it would be this hard to find a night job. You would think it would be plenty of night jobs around but I am having a hard time finding them. I'm not giving up though. I am looking everyday so hopefully something will come up. I wish I could just find me a desk job somewhere. I'm sure I'm going to have to get a job where I have to be on my feet the whole time which sucks since my full time job that's what I'm doing so why would i want another job to do that but I don't think I'll have much of a choice.

I also have decided to start looking for full time jobs in the field that I'm going to school for. I'm not looking for another job I am okay where I am at for right now but I figured it wouldn't hurt to look and if an opportunity came up, I would be stupid not to take it. So I'm going to apply to what I can and if I'm lucky someone might hire me but if not, I'm cool with it. I'm not too much in a rush to move on.

Wish it could be like the movies...

Sometimes I wish my life could be like a romantic movie. I must admit I still kind of have a thing for my ex. I don't know if that makes me stupid or not. Even after everything we have been through I still have a little soft spot for him. I know we haven't been together in over 2 years now and he has moved on but sometimes I wish he would come to the realization that he is still in love with me and wants to be with me and would do everything in his power to prove to me that he loves me and would do anything to be with me and make our family work. I really miss having my best friend around. I have yet to meet a guy who I feel comfortable around enough to think of as a best friend. It sucks when you can't be with the person you want. I guess life can't be like the movies all the time.

Great news!.....

It's official!! I will be going back to school this fall. I just checked my email and my appeal was accepted. I'm so excited! I thought it would take a while to hear back but they sent an email Tuesday saying they received it then sent an email Wednesday saying it was accepted. It all took less than a week. I can not wait to start back. It said that I have to get a 2.0 gpa to be able to get my financial aid for the spring semester. This is my chance and I'm going to try not to blow it. I'm telling myself I better enjoy this month because once school starts back that's going to be my main focus and I know I won't be getting a lot of sleep. I am determined to come out with a degree. I have two kids depending on me to give them a better life and I plan on doing that no matter what. Sleep can wait. I'll sleep after I graduate. I do not plan on working a job living check to check the rest of my life. I want a career and to have a place I love to go to and to buy a house one day. I so can not wait! I have been out of school for a year now and I'm ready to get back to it again. I'm going to try my darndest not to screw up this time around.

2 years alone...

Well it's been 2 years since me and my ex broke up and I can't believe I am still single. I don't really have any men in my life. I wouldn't have thought I would have been single this long. If anything I thought me and my ex would have worked things out and got back together but that never happened. It sucks being alone all the time. No one to talk to, go out with, spend time with, laugh and have fun with, nothing. I realized the other day that one of the reasons I took my break up with my ex so hard was because he wasn't just my boyfriend but my best friend too. When I lost one, I lost the other. He was truly and honestly my best friend. We use to have fun together. Make each other laugh, joke around, high five and chase each other around. I really miss that. I hope the next guy I'm with I will have that with. Not just a boyfriend but a best friend I can feel comfortable doing anything around. Sometimes I feel like I'm going to be alone forever. 2 years has gone past so let's see how much more time goes past until I'm not alone anymore.

It's July....

I thought I would post since I haven't in 2 months. The job is still going great. It is a complete change from my last job and I am thankful for it. I love a job where you can go in and do what you have to do, chill out when your done and then leave when its time to go. No bosses breathing down your back and all the employees actually get a long. No fights and no telling as far as I know. I haven't had to work a weekend yet and its been nice but that's about to change in a couple weeks.  I will officially start working weekends in August. I can honestly say I don't feel too bad about it and I don't like working weekends. I only have to work one weekend every 2 months so I can't complain since it's better than every other and I know I'm only going to have about 2 hours worth of work both days so I'll be sitting around doing nothing unless I'm getting calls.

I'm trying to get back into school starting this fall and I hope I will be able to. I sent in my appeal letter for my financial aid on Friday so now I'm just waiting to hear back and I hope it's good news. I am ready to go back and I need my financial aid to be able to, without it, I'm not going to be able to go back because I can't pay out of pocket. I will probably have to enroll in another school if I can't get it back and I don't want to do that. I want to stay where I am. If I get to go back, I can forget about getting a lot of sleep because I will be pulling all nighters to make sure I'm getting my assignments done. I am determined to do better and get through school and graduate. I'm ready to get a good paying job so I don't have to live paycheck to paycheck and to buy a house for me and my kids so we can get out of apartments. I just hope everything works out for me.