Single parenthood...

Single parenthood sucks!! I don't regret my kids at all but it is definitely hard to have a life when you have kids around all the time. I want to be able to go out on dates and have a night out every once in awhile. I am interested in this guy I met on Plenty of Fish and we have been talking the past two weeks and it would be nice to be able to go out with him so we can hang out in person and not just be chatting on the phone all the time. I just don't want him to lose interest in me because I may seem like I am never available. I wanted to go out with him tonight but I don't have anyone to keep my kids so I am stuck in the house. I just hope I will be able to go out with him next weekend or the weekend after. I really don't want to miss the chance of getting to know this guy because I have kids and miss out on the guy who could be the one. I feel like just because I have kids doesn't mean I shouldn't be able to have a life and go out every now and again. I haven't been out of the house and had fun since last July. Now that I have a guy that I am interested in, I want to be able to go out every now and again. Hopefully things will work out. If this guy was meant to be in my life then I still have a chance.

Job hunting again...

I am on the hunt for another job. I like my job but I am ready to go. The lady that I work with is planning on leaving to go back home to Louisiana which means I am going to get stuck with all of her work plus I am going to have to work with a new person and I do not know if I can handle it. She says she is planning on leaving in July so I am hoping I can be gone by the end of June. I put in an app the other day for the same job that I am doing but at another facility and I hope I can get it. Right now, I am just waiting on getting a call for an interview but if I can make it to the interview, I hope I can get offered the job. I know the people at my job will be shocked if I put in my two weeks notice because they are banking on me taking over when the lady I work with leaves. It is just so many little things at that job that seems like it gets bigger and bigger to where I get irritated all the time and I just don't want to be there anymore. I pretty much like the people at my job and I like the job I do but I just don't want to be there anymore. Hopefully things will work out to where I can be out of there by my goal time which is no later then the end of June.

Another semester down...

The spring semester is finally over!! At least at my school it is, at the community college where I am taking my math class its not over for another week. Summer classes start in a few days. So I will technically still be in the spring semester while in the summer semester which is weird. I think I made it out of my classes with passing grades. I think I have a C and two Bs and now I have to wait for my math class to be over to find out what I get in there and I am praying that I pass because I would hate to have to take that class over. Now I can get into my summer classes and it might be tough because the sessions are only 7 weeks so a lot will have to be crammed into each week. I hope I can make it through and pass then I can go to the Fall semester and once it starts, I will only have three more semesters to go until I graduate and I am definitely counting down because I am determined to make it to graduation. Failing is not an option. I just want to make a better me and get a good paying job to where I don't have to worry about struggling for money. The end is getting closer and closer and I can't wait until I am there.

Another dating site...

I have found me another dating app to get on. Like I said in my previous post, I was on Tinder and they have decent guys on there but the only problem is they can not hold a conversation. Of all the guys I matched with on there, I have only really been in contact with one. So I picked another app to get on called Plenty of Fish to see if I would have a better chance of getting to talk to guys and I did. I can honestly say that Plenty of Fish is way better than Tinder. The guys actually talk on there and I was able to talk to a couple of guys on Saturday night which made my night less boring. The only thing I can say I didn't like is that anybody can message you so pretty much its up to you if you want to message that person back or not. With Plenty of Fish, you can set a search of what your looking for going by age, height, if they have kids, if they are black, white or whatever. Tinder only lets you search by age. I got to talk to a few guys that I was interested in and we ended up exchanging numbers so that we could talk outside of the app. There were some guys who were trying to get my number without even really talking to me first. They would pretty much say hi and how are you then would be trying to exchange numbers so then I would ignore them after that because I was not about to exchange numbers with a guy I have barely talked to. I did exchange numbers with three guys on there and we have talked off and on but there is this one guy that I have been talking to and he seems really cool. I'm about ready to stop talking to the other two just to talk to him because between the three, he is the only one that I am constantly talking to and we are actually getting to know each other. He definitely seems like a great guy. He'll be 33 this year, has a good job, actually has his own house, and cars, has a daughter but the one thing I can say that interest me the most about him is that he wants to get married and have more kids which is what I want to do too. I actually have been talking to him on the phone which is a big deal considering I don't like talking on the phone. I'm not trying to jump the gun or anything since we have only been talking for a few days and its not like we have even met each other face to face yet but this guy just might be the one I have been waiting on. He seems like a genuinely, sweet guy with a good head on his shoulders and I am kind of excited to see where things go from here but all I can say is to take things one day at a time and who knows in a couple of years he could end up being the guy I marry and have a family with and to think it all started by me downloading the Plenty of Fish app. I haven't been this excited about a guy in a long time. The cool thing is neither one of us has been in a meaningful relationship with anyone in years so I am excited to see where this will lead to. Hopefully great things are ahead for the both of us...

Easter time...

This weekend is Easter which means we are half way through the month of April and I am ready for it to be over already. I wish I could take my kids to the egg hunts that are happening but since I have to go to my class because its a test day I'm screwed but there is always next year. I am ready for May to get here. I have a month left in school for the Spring semester and I am so ready for it to be over. I am ready to start and get the Summer semester over with so I can get to the Fall semester and then I will be half way done with school and have less than a handful of semesters to go before I graduate and I am ready for that time.

Tinder thoughts...

Still messing with Tinder so just wanted to post a couple of thoughts I had. It seems kind of hard to find big guys on there. The majority of the guys on there are white but when I do come across a black guy it seems like they are too skinny for my taste. I'm attracted to chunky guys and most of the guys on there are either skinny or muscular skinny guys who seem to spend a lot of time in the gym.
There is this one guy on there that I have been talking to who seems really cool. He's not a bad looking guy, seems to have a good job and he's 40 which I am definitely attracted to older guys but I think we can only be friends and chat every now and again because he lives in a different state and I think he just comes up here for business. We have exchanged numbers and have been texting but he definitely sucks at texting because I can text him and it seems like it takes him forever to text back if he even texts back at all. Is it too much to ask to find a decent guy who can hold a conversation? Maybe one day the right guy will come along and I will finally have someone I can at least chat with.

Dentist appointment...

Last week, I went to the dentist for the first time in I don't know how many years. I was definitely nervous because I didn't know what to expect since I hadn't been in so long. I thought I was going to have a bunch of cavities in my mouth or I was going to need to have a bunch a teeth pulled. The dental hygienist and dentists were all nice. I feel I made a good choice picking them to go to. I only have two cavities which is less than what I thought I had so I am happy. I was at my appointment for 3 hours since it had been so long since I have been to the dentist, it took a long time to clean my teeth. I have an appointment to go back on June 1st to get my cavities filled, to get a tooth pulled because I still have one of my baby teeth that never came out and to get braces. I'm kind of excited to get braces because I know I need them. My teeth aren't that crooked except for a few in the front but I need them to move one of my teeth where it's suppose to be which is why I have to get my baby tooth pulled out first. Since my baby tooth never fell out on its own, it pushed my adult tooth out so its sticking out which has always made it hard for me to want to smile because of it now I'm finally about to get it fixed and I am ready. I can honestly say that I enjoyed my appointment so much that it made me think that if I wasn't going to school for what I want to then I would probably go to become a dental hygienist.