Worn out......

It's been a while since I have been on here and posted. Just waiting to go into work right now. Since the last time I have been on here, I have finished my first semester of school but I haven't checked my grades because I am sure they are bad. I took on more than I could handle and I have learned my lesson. Now I am trying to redeem myself and do better these next couple of semesters. I am taking one class this summer semester. It's a computer class that I thought I didn't have to take but since I couldn't get a hold of an advisor to find out if I had to take it or not I just went ahead and took it. It is not too bad but the summer is faster than the fall or spring so all my assignments are due within two days of each other. The only difference with this class is I will be learning Microsoft Access. I never did that one before it would be nice to become familiar with it.

On another note, I am officially 14 weeks pregnant today. This pregnancy is moving along and in about 4 weeks I will be able to find out what I am having. I am praying that this is a girl. I feel like I am not a person who wants to have boys I want all girls so hopefully it works out for me. I still haven't told anyone that I am pregnant yet but that will be coming to an end soon since I am getting bigger everyday. I know the hardest part about being pregnant is working.  I am always so tired. I'm on my feet all day walking around for hours and it literally wears me out. I try to sit down as much as I can but I could definitely use some time off because I am tired all the time and have no energy.  I'm sure I'll be like this all the way through so I can't wait until I go on my leave.  As much as I shouldn't, I am still hoping things work out between me and my ex. We talk all the time and he tells me how much he misses me and misses being with me and we still love each other and sad to say we still mess around with each other even though he is with someone else. He asked me one day why when he thought long term he thought of me. The thing that bugs me is he wants to be with me, I know he does he tells me all the time but it is taking him forever to leave this other girl. It's obvious he doesn't want to be with her but for some reason he is taking his time. I feel like a real man would not treat women that way. Tell me he wants to be with me but continue to be with someone else and stay with a woman he doesn't want to be with and instead of breaking it off with her he would rather lie and cheat on her. I really don't care about her but I don't believe someone should be treated like that and I wouldn't want someone to treat me that way. I know the girl is pregnant but that doesn't mean he has to stay with her. He can still be in his kid's life without having anything to do with her. We will just wait and see what happens but I know I'm not going to wait forever for him to do something he should have did a long time ago.