Why is finding love so hard?...

I never realized that finding love would be so hard. Once I had officially hit the 5 year mark of singleness it occurred to me that its hard to find. I know there has to be someone out of these millions of people in the world for me but it doesn't seem like it. Its not like I am looking for an instant boyfriend. I just want a friend who wants to spend time with me, talk and get to know me, have fun, and go out on dates. Then in a few months I would hope that would turn into a relationship, then love, and then possibly marriage and a happy life building our family and growing old together. I hate that I want what I want when it feels like I will never get it. When you are single it feels like everyone is in a relationship with someone but you. I just hate the feeling of loneliness and feeling like I'm going to be alone forever. I know I'm not that old but I'm not getting any younger either. My goal is to be able to have at least two more kids before I turn 40 so I still have time but I don't want to be close to 40 when it happens. Why can't life go the way you imagine and dream it to be? If I had it my way, I would be in a relationship and having fun going on dates and staying in watching tv and movies, enjoying every second I have with my love, waiting on a surprise proposal. Not sure if I want to have a wedding but I would want to wait at least 6 months to a year after marriage to start having kids because I want to enjoy time with my husband before more babies are brought into the picture. We'll have a nice sized house in a nice community where we can enjoy our summers and take care of our family. All I really want is someone to love who will equally love me the same. I don't know why that is hard but 50 percent of me wants to give up and the other 50 tells me to keep holding on hope so its definitely a tug of war feeling that will hopefully be over one day.