The Man in my life...

 I'm still in shock that I actually have a man in my life. We are not official or anything but he is the closest thing I have had to a man actually caring about me in a long time. This month I will have officially been single for 12 years. For a long time, I have prayed, hoped, wished, fasted, and manifested that one day a good man would come into my life and make me happy. It's looking like that day has finally came. I have prayed a LONGGG time and waited and tried to be patient because it has been a long wait with a lot of duds in between but I think GOD finally put the man that I have been praying for in my life and I am happy. I met him off Facebook dating which you would think you wouldn't find anyone good on there. I have been on and off on there looking for friends or a potential boyfriend and there were some decent guys and some not so decent but things never went anywhere with them. I started chatting with him May 16, 2024 and I know the exact date because I looked back at the beginning of our chat and it was shocking that it was the day after his birthday. We chatted off and on and I was about to forget about him because it seemed like I was the only one really interested because I was always trying to keep the chat going and I feel like he always ignored me but something always made me come back and say something although I was ready to give up on him. I always called him my BFF. To this day, I still call him that sometimes. We eventually started chatting on FB Messenger on July 12, 2024 instead of the dating chat and I bought a shirt from him because he has his own Merch business. We chatted off and on for months and then on February 11th of this year, he finally gave me his phone number and he officially became my BFF. I'm glad I still have all the chats to go back and look at them which is why I have all the dates 😄. We actually hung out for the first time on Valentine's Day. Which was nice because I never have any one to spend Valentine's with. This was the first time in a long time that I actually had a Valentine. I just went to his place and hung out. It was weird because usually when I meet someone online I'm always nervous to meet them in person. I can keep chatting forever but when it comes to talking on the phone or meeting you in person it's nerve wreaking but it wasn't with him. He lives an hour away and the closer I got I thought I would have been nervous but I wasn't I was actually excited and he has been in my life ever since. The sucky thing is I don't get to see him a lot maybe once or twice a month but I talk to him everyday and hopefully we'll figure out a way one day to get to see each other more but I'm excited and want to see where things are going. Two weeks ago, July 17th, which was the last time I saw him, he actually slipped and told me he loves me 💗now I don't know if it meant anything or not because it was quick as we were leaving each other but I can always say that he told me he love me first. It just feels nice to feel wanted and to be able to express myself without wondering if I should. It always puts a smile on my face when he calls me "baby" "boo" or "love".

I can definitely see a future with him. I just hope he doesn't have any drama in his life. He has a son so I hope there is no baby mama drama although from what I have seen him and his son's mom are friends which I do not know if that's a good or bad thing. Things are going good so far and I hope they stay that way. I'm thankful and definitely feel blessed to have him in my life. I do not think I could have found a better man to be in my life and be my BFF. It's been over a year since we first started chatting with each other to him actually being my friend. I wonder where things will be by this time next year. I hope by then I can officially say that he is my man and we are happy and working toward what our future will be together. Like I said, I couldn't have asked for a better man for GOD to put in my life. He's very handsome, sweet, educated, loves kids, is a family man, and can always put a smile on my face. I know when I pray I always thank the LORD for putting him in my life and finally sending the man that I have prayed for for a long time. I pray that this is the man that I will be blessed to grow old with and be there and support and love on and build with. I just want to get to the point where we can't imagine not having each other in our lives.