Oh well.......

So I went to my job training today and afterwards realized that I won't be taking the job. I know that was a big decision for me to make and I'm glad I made up my mind before I signed any papers. So as much as I hate to say it, now I have to continue on my search for another job. It saddens me to think that for a few days I was so excited about having a job and now I'm declining the offer. The reason why I've decided not to continue with the job is at the training they told us what we were going to be doing which is selling vacuum cleaners. SELLING VACUUM CLEANERS???!!!! I can not believe it. Basically we have to go to people's houses and demonstrate a vacuum cleaner in the hopes that they will want to buy it. I'm not gonna lie, it was the cooloest vacuum cleaner I have ever seen it picks up everything, you can clean your whole house with it, carpets, hardwood floors, walls, ceilings, even your mattresses because we all know as gross as it is whats in our bed. BUGS AND THEIR FECES!!!!! We sleep in it everyday plus our dead skin. I tried to get with it and think I can do this, but then I realized I don't want to go door to door trying to demonstrate a vacuum cleaner. That's not the job I signed up for anyway, I thought I was going to be sitting at a desk answering phones. As much as I need a job right now, I have decided to sacrifice that job in the hopes of finding one I would feel more comfortable with. I mean, nobody wants to do a job they don't feel comfortable with right? So unfortunately I won't be going back tomorrow. But now I definately need to get back to praying and hopefully I will find another job before March. But I hate to have to go through the feeling of not having a job again. It just wasn't for me and hopefully I will find something that is real soon. I know in this day and time it's not good to be picky about a job, but like I said before I don't want to do a job that I am not comfortable doing. I guess the monkey is back on my back and I'm still carrying alot of weight on my shoulders I'm ready to be able to feel comfortable again.