Living in a nightmare....

I feel like this is all a bad dream. I still can't believe its over between me and my boyfriend after 2 years. I hope I will be able to get over it in time but right now its still fresh and it hurts. It just sucks that my daughter has to deal with it. Even though she's not aware of what's going on. I wish it didn't have to be this way.  I wish things could go back to the way they were. I wish there was some way I knew what to do different. I don't know its just crazy and I am still shocked. I have to try and hide my tears and its not easy. I wish I could just wake up and this nightmare would be over and everything would be fine and happy. Now today I am going apartment hunting. I just hope I will be able to get something soon. I have until the end of next month to find something but I need to know now where I'm going so I can tell the front office I'm leaving and so I can start packing. The sooner the better. Well I'm off of here to go start the search. Wish me luck. I hope everything will be ok.