Another day.....

Well here's to another day. I am officially 27 years old and I will be 5 weeks pregnant tomorrow. Still haven't told my mom yet but I will be telling her soon. I told my ex and of course he tells me to get an abortion. I don't now how someone who claims to love you would tell you to get an abortion. I personally don't believe in abortions. I know this isn't a good time to be having another kid but GOD makes no mistakes. No one said life was suppose to be easy so all I can do is my best. Personally, I think he is telling me to get an abortion because he just doesn't want to have to come clean to his girlfriend that he has been cheating on her with his ex and his daughters mother and now he got her pregnant. He told me that she had got an abortion but then again I don't know if I should believe him. He likes to lie a lot and I'm thinking he would tell me she got an abortion to make me think well if she got one then I should get one too. I guess we'll find out in a couple of months if she really got one or not. I told him that if he doesn't want to have anything to do with this kid then he doesn't it is his choice but I don't believe in taking the easy way out so we will see how this plays out in the end.

I still can not believe that I am pregnant. It just seems so surreal. I don't think I will begin to believe until I have my first doctor's appointment then it will start to hit me. So far I haven't had any noticeable symptoms and hopefully it will stay that way. Yesterday, I was on YouTube looking up pregnancy stuff and came across this girl named Tiffany's vlog. Now I use to go to her vlog all the time when I was pregnant the first time. She did videos every week about her pregnancy. Come to find out she had another baby last year and did more week by week videos about this pregnancy. She really seems like a put together person. She has a boyfriend who became her fiancée and they bought a house together. I don't now about her but her fiancée seems to have a good job and they are raising their kids together. She also has an amazing body for someone with two kids. She eats right and works out and she just looks very together. Her hair always looks amazing whether she wears it curly or straight and her make up is always perfect and she has a nice sense of style. I wish I could get my life together like her. I always feel like I'm just frumpy looking all the time. I know after I have this baby I want to lose weight and do a better job at it then I did the first time around. I am going to do my best to exercise through this pregnancy. See if I can find some decent pregnancy workout video and use them through out. I am going to try and walk as much as I can and drink lots of water. That's all for now. I am going to keep writing as much as I can through this pregnancy I know I didn't do it like I wanted to the first time around.