Wednesday, August 27, 2014

Finally decided.....

So I finally decided when I am going to leave work. I am officially 26 weeks today. So I have 2 more weeks until I am 7 months and in my last trimester. So ready for this to be over. Surprisingly, this pregnancy has actually been a cake walk compared to my first one. I'm not in a lot of pain and I was in so much pain the first time around whether I was getting out of bed or getting out of a chair or walking, it hurt. The only time I'm in any real pain is when I'm at work and I have been on my feet. Once I sit down, it hurts to get up. Another thing is the first time around I was sick a lot and I haven't been sick at all this time. I want to see if I can get my doctor to write me a restriction saying I can only work 3 days a week. I feel like since I am getting closer to the end I should be trying to rest as much as possible and it is hard to do when I barely get much sleep. I'm usually in bed around 11 and I have my alarm set to go off at 3:50am so I only get about 4 hours of sleep every night then I have to go to work where I'm on my feet the majority of the day. I try to sit down as much as I can but I only have so much time because I do have work to do. Then when I get off I only get no more than 2 hours after I get off work to take a nap before I have to pick up my daughter and I know its not enough because I literally have to force myself to get up. Once I lay down its hard to want to get up. If I could work 3 days a week then I know I would not have to work weekends anymore which I absolutely hate and it would give me more time to be able to clean up since it is hard to want to do any cleaning after being on my feet all day all I want to do is rest. Anyway, I have decided my last official day at work is going to be October 31. So Halloween is my last day at work. It is a Friday so I would like to leave at the end of the week especially since its on the weekend I don't work. I'm just glad the month of August is almost over. Only 4 more days and it will officially be September and 2 more months until I can get away from my idiot job. It has definitely been a struggle staying at this place but I am literally counting down until I can leave. I hate not being able to job hunt but as soon as I have my baby I will officially be on the search again and I am praying I will be able to find something before my maternity leave is over because I do not want to step foot back ay this job again. I know it is time for me to leave because I had a breakdown the last weekend I worked because I didn't want to work and I hated having to send my daughter somewhere when she wanted to be with me. It hurt so bad that I couldn't do anything and I didn't have a choice. I am hoping the next job I get it will be a Monday-Friday job. I have never been a weekend worker and never will be one. The only reason I am now is because I don't have much of a choice. I am so ready to disappear from this job and hope to never have to see this place again. All I can do is pray for the best.

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