Almost 6 months....

I will officially be 6 months this coming Wednesday. I am ready for this pregnancy to be over. I am getting bigger and I don't have as much pain as I did my first pregnancy although I am starting to feel a little pain and I am always out of breath. It is killing me to not be able to job hunt. I want to so bad. I have 3 months until I go on my maternity leave and I will be off work for about 3 months. In that time, I plan on job hunting and applying to everything that I can and just pray that I will be able to get a job some where before my maternity leave is up. Once my leave is up, I'm going to have to go back to my sucky job and I am determined to not have to set foot back in that place. I know it is going to hurt me to have to go back after being gone for so long especially when I don't like being there now. All I know is I am counting down until I can leave that place. It is so hard to walk up in there everyday I always have to find the strength just to get through the day. I just hope my time is almost done there. All I know is I don't know how I'm going to be able to take care of myself and two kid plus pay rent and bills with the little bit of money I make there. Its time for me to go I just hate with me being pregnant I am just stuck there since I leave in three months there is no purpose for me to do any job hunting. I just pray that I will be able to find something better in the limited time that I will have. I just don't want to go back to that place and I hope I won't have to.