My pathetic life...

I feel like my life is so pathetic. After yesterday's loneliness fiasco, it just proved to me how lonely I really am. It really makes me cry and depressed how I can say I don't have a life. I have no one in my life that I can really talk to or go out with or spend time with. It just really sucks. I wish I knew how I could change my life. I have no clue of what to even do. I have tried to date but it is hard to date with kids and having to find someone to keep them and plus the men that I have met have so far proven to be no good. Why is it so hard to find a decent guy? So far the guys I have met are commitment phobes who are scared to start a relationship or they are very flakey and don't answer your texts when you send them one. If it is one thing I hate is when I am trying to text someone and they don't text you back in a reasonable amount of time. If hours pass and I haven't heard from you, I know you are ignoring my texts because I am sure you keep your phone close and you got the message. I just pray that a decent guy will finally come around one day. I just want someone I can get to know, spend time with and go out on dates every once and awhile. I'm so over being alone. I want it to be over soon. All I can do is pray that someone will come around because I feel like I have tried to change my situation on my own but I always end up meeting the wrong guys for some reason. You wouldn't think it would be this hard to find a decent man but it has been 5 long years. I am hoping that by this time next year someone will come in my life and not make it 6 years alone. Where are all the genuine men who are looking for love and want something real with someone? I am in my 30s now and I just want to find a man that I can marry and have a couple more kids with before I get even older. I try to stay hopeful but it is hard when the wrong men keep coming around. When will the right man come along? I hope it will be sooner rather than later since I have already been waiting 5 long years. This waiting is killing me I just want to be happy. I just want someone who I can miss, and think about all the time, and call my own. Is it wrong to want to be happy? I just don't want to be sitting around looking pathetic forever. I wish I knew of other people in my shoes so I know I am not the only person feeling like a loser all the time.