Marriage goals...

I always wonder when the guy that I am suppose to spend the rest of my life with will come into my life. I have been single going on 4 years. Its a part me that's fine with it since its been so long but its another part of me that wishes I didn't have to be alone all the time. There's so many people I know that are in relationships and are married and I can't even get a boyfriend. I am no where near the point of talking about marrying someone. It kind of sucks. I will be turning 30 this year and I am hoping that in the next year or two the guy I am suppose to marry will pop up in my life and I can be married by the time I am 35. I still want to have at least 2 more kids and I would like to be married when I do. All I can do is wait for it to be my time and I'm sure GOD will send a guy one day. I think it will be nice to finally get married and have a complete family.

Tough semester...

So far I am trying to make it through this semester. I don't think I'm doing too bad but I think I was doing a lot better last semester. I had to drop a class because I felt like I couldn't keep up with it and there was too much reading and it was definitely hard to keep up. It made me realize I can do four classes but five classes is too much. I am just hoping I can make it through this semester and pass my classes with at least a C. I joined a club in my department called the Community Service Club. I'm glad I was able to find a way to get involved on campus which was a goal of mines and also to be able to do community service and volunteering opportunities. I was able to volunteer yesterday and it was pretty cool. Its nice to be able to go out and help people. I can't wait for the next opportunity and who knows maybe their will be more people to come and help since it was only 5 of us.

Decided on a plan...

This is my first official post of the new year!! My last post I mentioned wanting to get rid of my flabby belly and needing to figure out how I was going to do it. Now, I have figured it out. I decided to go on the Nutrisystem plan. They are selling it on QVC and Marie Osmond was on there. They are selling the first five set. Which comes in a box and has a weeks worth of breakfast, lunch, dinner snacks and shakes. It costs a lot but I am just waiting on my school refund money then I can put in my order. I want to order the six week set of meals. Once I put in my order I will officially start exercising for at least an hour a day. I am excited to get started now that I have a plan in place. I think this is a good plan because I didn't know how I was going to get started and now I know. I will have all the food I need so I won't have to do any grocery shopping or planning meals. I just need to get a scale so I can keep track of my weight loss. So by summer time I should be able to lose a significant amount of weight and I am so ready to get started. Hopefully, I will be able to put my order in within the next couple weeks and get started by the beginning of February. I am just ready to start feeling good and comfortable with myself. I don't feel that way with my big belly so I am ready to get rid of it and not feel like I have to wear big clothes all the time. We'll see what happens and how much weight I can lose by July.

The year is over...

Today, is the last day of 2016. I can't believe this year is officially over. Christmas has came and went and now it's time for the new year. I hope 2017 turns out to be a great year. This year was not too bad. It was definitely one of my better years because there have been horrible years for me. This year I was able to get back in school and have raised my GPA up and got myself off of academic probation, got a better paying job that is in the field I am going to school for, got to go to the best concert ever over the summer and was finally able to get my own apartment that I don't have to share with anyone but my kids. What I am hoping for in 2017 is to try to become healthier. I need to find a way to do it so I am still working on that. I just want to work on getting rid of my flabby belly area if anything so I would like to work on that as soon as possible and then by summer maybe I will look decent. I want to continue doing well in school. I made it through the year with decent grades hopefully I can continue this coming year. I am hoping I can find something to get involved in at school so I plan on attending the involvement fair and maybe I will find something to get into. I hope I will be able to get the condo I want. It's still on the market so far so good. Hopefully it will stay up until I am ready to get it which won't be for a while. It probably won't be until summer time. I have a good chance of being able to get it. There are two other condos in the area that have been for sale for close to year and over a year. I'm planning on throwing my daughter a birthday party for her 5th birthday so that way all of her friends can come out and celebrate before they all go their separate ways off to different schools for kindergarten. I was also thinking about taking a trip to Great Wolf Lodge. I think that would be fun to do so maybe in March we can do that if I have the money. Who knows maybe I will find the man of my dreams. I have been single for 3 1/2 years so maybe 2017 might be the year I find a great and loving guy. Who knows what the year holds I just hope it will be all good.

Semester over!!!...

The Fall semester is officially over!! I made it through another semester and I must say I am very proud of myself. I passed all my classes. Which was not easy considering it is hard to find time for myself with working a full time job and taking care of two kids by myself. I'm glad I was able to finish. I took four classes and I received an A+ in one, which it is my first A since I started school, 2 B's and a C+, which I am happy for because I would have hated to have to take that class over. I have came a long way from when I first started up there. My grades were horrible because I was going through a rough time and was depressed a lot so I wasn't very focused. All the bad grades led me to academic probation. Now on to the Spring semester which starts in 3 weeks and I am ready to get started and get it over with. I have to see my adviser next week so I can finally sign up for my classes. It sucks to have to wait this long when it seems like everyone else is already registered for classes. Since I did good this semester that means I should finally be off of academic probation and I have been on it all year. Once I am officially off, I can sign up for classes when it starts instead of having to wait until the end of the semester so that I can sign up for the classes I want instead of them getting full. I hope I can do just as good in the Spring like I did in the Fall. Next Fall, I will officially be half way done and will only have four semesters to go, not including Summers. I am ready to graduate. I hope I can continue on and make it to graduation. That is my main goal. The sooner I can graduate the sooner I can get a better paying job. But I just have to take things one semester at a time.

Waiting on true love....

When am I ever going to meet the man that I am suppose to spend the rest of my life with? It has been a long time since I have been in a relationship with anybody or even been on a date. I have been single ever since me and my ex broke up and that was 3 and a half years ago. My ex took no time moving on from our relationship and even though he doesn't know that I know he just recently married the girl. It's funny because he has actually been hiding it from me. He hasn't told me at all and the times I have seen him he takes his wedding ring off. It makes me wonder why it's a big secret if you love the girl you should be happy and proud to show it off. Its not like I'm anybody to hide it from. Why get married just to hide it? I don't think I will ever understand men and their thought process. But I know I would be stupid to marry a guy who would hide the fact that he is married. Personally, I think its a mistake. There is a lot of lies and deception in that marriage and I think the girl was stupid to marry him but what do I know I'm just a single, lonely spinster who can't get a man to save her life. But I do know that the marriage is a mistake but it is definitely not my place to say anything and I can honestly say that I don't envy that girl at all because I would not want to be in her shoes. Anyway, I wonder when I can find a good man. I'm just waiting on the LORD to bring him into my life. I have waited all these years, I wonder how much longer I will have to wait. I just hope whenever he comes, he's in it for the long haul. I want a funny, loving man in my life. Hopefully he is honest because it is hard to come by an honest man these days. If possible, I would like to be friends first of course. I just want someone I can build and grow with and be able to trust. I have already waited 3 and a half years I pray I won't have to wait another 3 and a half.

Crazy long time...

I know it has been awhile but I didn't know it has been almost 3 months since I last posted. Where does the time go? Well, November is almost over. We are in the week of Thanksgiving. Which is always an exciting time. Time to eat and go black friday shopping, if you go. Thankfully, the fall semester is almost over. I have less than 4 weeks to go then I can get ready for the spring semester. I hope I can make it through all of my classes with no problems. It sucks being on academic probation. I can't even register for spring classes until I meet with my adviser. I so wanted to take a sign language class next semester because they actually offered it online and it would have been one of my elective classes but since I haven't been able to register yet I missed out and now all the classes are full. Who knew there would be so many people interested in it. The only way I can sign up for the class is if some people decide to drop it around the time that I can register and that won't be for another month. I'm just happy that I am almost in my junior classes and finally getting done with these core classes. It seems like it's taking forever to get them done but if everything goes as planned then I will be graduating in 2 and a half years and I can not wait. Then hopefully I can get a job making more money and eventually get me a job that I can work from home. Who knows maybe in 5 years I will be able to buy a house. Right now, I'm just worried about getting a condo. Its one I want that is 4 bedrooms in a decent area but I wouldn't be able to get it until I am ready to move again and that won't be until next year. If I am lucky it will still be on the market next year but only time will tell. So far I have been in my apartment about 2 months and it is so nice to finally be able to have my own place but I am kinda ready for it to be next year so I can hopefully get that condo I want. There are a couple of things I dislike is that my patio area is full of leaves and surrounded by trees and its barely any grass around but the apartments across from us is full of grass and no trees and leaves. Another thing I dislike is the washing clothes situation. It cost $1.75 to wash and $1.50 to dry one load. Its not like I have all this money to just get quarters all the time. I can't wait until  can have my own washer and dryer so I hope I can look forward to that next year.