Baby Time!!!!

Yes you heard right!! Its baby time! Me and my love are trying to have a baby. I know we have only been together a short time but we are so in love and it just feels right. I have wanted to start having kids for years the only thing that stopped me was not having a guy in my life. Now I have one and he wants more kids just as much as I want to have them. We are so ready. We are just waiting on things to happen. We started trying the first couple of weeks we were together. It does seem like we are rushing it and there is no rush but we will be so proud and happy to bring a baby in this world. If we have a boy we are naming it after him and if we have a girl we are naming it something he likes with his middle name turned into a girl version. So far no luck on putting a bun in my oven yet but I bought some ovulation tests the other day so in a couple days I will start using them and pray that things work out and by the end of next month hopefully we will have some good news. I'm so ready for this!! I just feel like its my time to be someones mom and I have a good man in my life. I couldn't have a better man to be the father of my children. I just really pray that by the end of next month I can say that I'm pregnant. It will be a great feeling. It just sucks to see other people pregnant when your trying to get to that point. I pray GOD blesses us soon. I think we will be great parents. When I hear him talking to his son on the phone it just lets me know that he is a good dad and he'll be a great dad to our children. LORD knows I'm ready!! All I can do right now is to continue trying which is the fun part until we get what we want which is our baby. Can't wait to be able to say that I'm actually pregnant and I'll be so happy when I get to tell him because I know he will be super happy. I just know he is the one. Its so nice to know I have a man in my life who actually wants to have a baby and is not one of those guys who thinks if I get pregnant he'll just handle his responsibility but isn't really excited about having one. I just know in my heart that I'm with the guy that GOD wants me to be with for the rest of my life. I can't wait to have his baby. So we'll see when it hppens. Hopefully it will be sooner than I think.

I have no problems dealing............

My boyfriend is the love of my life. I do not know where I would be if he wasn't in my life right now. We have only been together for 2 months but it seems like longer. The crazy thing is he use to be married. Actually he just got a divorce and was only married for about 6-7 months. We got together before he got a divorce. I know that doesn't sound right but its hard to resist someone you have an instant connection with plus his marriage was over before we got together anyway. I think I was the one to help him speed up the process of getting the divorce. I never thought that I would be in a relationship with a divorced man. I guess its one of those never say never situations. He also has a son. Which is another one of those I never thought I would be in a relationship with a guy with kids but I am. Unfortunately, his son lives in Texas so he never gets to see him. I think its sad because he can't be around his son to watch him grow up and to teach him things. I know it hurts him a lot. The only thing he can do is talk to his son on the phone. He never sees him and doesn't get to spend the holidays with him. I can't help but think that if me and my love are going to be together forever I might as well say I have a stepson which is crazy to me. I can't imagine having an instant son in my life but if he is I will be there for him just like I would my own children. I think the scary part would definitely be meeting him for the first time. I will be nervous because I wouldn't know what to do or how he would be around me but I can deal. I have no problems dealing....I think......

The LORD blessed me.....

The LORD finally blessed me with a boyfriend. I still can't believe that I can actually say that I have a boyfriend. It still seems weird. I never would have thought I would actually get to say those words. It seems like its been forever that I have waited for the LORD to send me someone who was just for me. I had a bunch of lame guys in my life that didn't want the same things that I wanted. All I ever wanted was to have a guy who wanted to be around me as much as I wanted to be with them and someone that I can see myself having a future with. I am 24 years old and I'm not getting any younger. It happened at the most random time. In early February, there was a contest going on at radio stations in different cities for Valentine's Day about who was the cutest couple. They had to submit a photo and tell the story of how they met each other. I would sit there and read as much as I could. It was nice to read how people met. I had fun reading them but it would make me sad because I would start to think, Why haven't I met the love of my life yet? I always thought it would never happen. Plus the guy that I liked at the time wasn't paying my any attention. I never got to see him or spend any time with him, he never called or texted me, and when I tried he never answered or replied back. So after that, I decided that I was through with dudes. I wasn't gonna worry about them any more because it was a waste of time. Then one day the love of my life wrote me on facebook and told me that I was beautiful because he was looking at my profile pic. I said thanks and he wrote back to see how I was. By the way, we had already knew each other from the past before he wrote me. We met in high school when I was a freshman and he was a sophomore. We were both in band together. I played clarinet and he played bass drum. He was my boyfriend for awhile back then but it didn't last long. He was interested in sex and being 14 and a freshman in high school I was scared and knew nothing about it so every time he made a move I would become nervous. So after awhile he dumped me and later he transferred schools and we lost touch. Now years later, we reconnected through facebook. After the first time he wrote me, we didn't talk for another two weeks. Then one day when I happened to be off work because I was suppose to take a CPR class but ended up signing up for the wrong one. I went home and got on facebook. We started writing each other again until we realized we were both on the computer so we started chatting on there and was talking to each other for 4-5 hours. It was nice then the next day he gave me his number so we could text each other while he was at work. So we started texting each other all day and night then talking on the phone. It was weird because I have never talked and texted somebody before all day everyday. A couple days had passed and he was ready to see me face to face so he was off on a Friday and after I got off work we hung out. I was a little nervous because I hadn't seen this dude in years but it wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. That day forward we became inseparable. We are together as much as we can be. Between our work schedules we barely have time together but we cherish every time we are. I don't think I have ever been so serious about a guy before. I am so in love and I believe he is my soulmate and that we were meant to be together. Before he came into my life, I never knew I could have someone who would love me so much. He likes being around me all the time. He likes to be with me and do things with me. He tells me I'm beautiful all the time. I never had that before. He likes to take care of me. Not that I need him to but he gives me money if I need it. He drives me to and from work. Its so amazing to me. He is my everything I pray that he will be mine forever. I don't need nor want anybody else.

I wrote alot! I'm so happy but there's more. So on to the next post.....

Checking in...

Hey

I see I haven't posted anything since Feb. 9th. Almost 3 months ago. Since then, I have finally got all my things cut back on. My internet, phone, and cable has been turned back on. I even added digital cable so now I can have more channels then before. Also back in March I got myself a boyfriend. I'll discuss that in another post. So far things are going great in my life especially with the new man in my life. I am happier than I ever been. The only thing I don't think is going too well is my schooling. A while ago my computer stopped working because of my cord so for two weeks I couldn't use the computer which put me behind on my school work. Now of course I could have went to the school and use the computer up there but it was so hard to get myself to go when I had been at work all day and I'm tired. All I wanted to do was go home. The day I was actually gonna go to the school and then again I decided I wasn't gonna go because I was tired from working, my boyfriend surprised me with getting my computer fixed. I was too happy because I didn't have to worry about going to the school or procrastinating. Now we are in the last two weeks of the semester and since I dropped my computer class, all I have left is my business and marketing classes. I think I'm doing better in one of them then the other. As long as I can come out with at least a C, I will be happy. Then summer school will start in June. I'm so nervous because I'm taking 5 classes so I'm hoping I'll do good in them. Summer school is only 8 weeks so I pray I'm able to pass all the classes with no problems.

Oh yeah and my birthday was a month ago so I am officially 24 years old.

Not another one

Well last night I get home from workto find out my internet has been cut off. I put a promise to pay the other day for next Friday. I thought that would have helped from getting it cut off but I guess not. Now, as of today, my cable, phone and internet is cut off. I guess thats what happens when you dont pay your bills on a regular basis and putting it off. I learned my lesson. Now I have to figure out how to get it cut back on. All of my classes are online classes so obviously I need my internet to be able to get the work done. I hope I can get it turned back on by tonight. We'll see. This is crazy in a span of a week and a half all three things have been cut off. Like I said I'm gonna try to at least get this internet back on I need at least one of the three working to get me through this time of no cable and phone. I just wish it would hurry up and be next Friday so I can get paid and caught up on these bills. It seems like it is takng forever for next Friday to come.

My Favorite TV Show!!!!!!

My favorite tv show as you can see is Psych!! I love this show so much!! I have been watching the show from the very beginning. Dule Hill was the one who caught my attention about watching the show. He is a great actor and an even better tap dancer. I love watching him dance. After watching this show all these years I have come to love James Roday. He definately makes that show. I have all 4 seasons on DVD and I'm waiting on season 5 which I'm sure will be out this Summer. I hate having to wait for the next season to start. It seems like FOREVER but its worth it. Its awesome that the show is doing so well that its going into its 6th season. The weird thing is I don't think I know anybody who watches this show faithfully like me but that's okay I like knowing that its my show.

Still Struggling...

Well I'm still struggling. My phone was just officially cut off on Friday which sucks. Now I have no way of getting in contact with anybody. The only way is through the Internet. Luckily, my computer still works. I'm still hoping my lights don't get cut off anytime soon. I don't get paid again until next Friday so I have to wait a little under two weeks before I can pay for anything. Which really sucks! So I'm just praying to the LORD that I can make it until next Friday okay. I got paid this past Friday and all my money disappeared so fast. I had to pay my rent. That's where all the money went. If I could, I would have only paid half or the majority but I'm already in trouble for being late too much so I wanted to pay the whole thing in full. After I put gas in my car and bought food all my money was gone. I just hope that if I do get the part time job I interviewed for last Monday, I hope they send me an email since I'm sure my phone won't be back on until next Friday. We'll see what happens but I just hope I can make it until then. I do not like depending on people to help me pay for stuff. I like being able to take care of myself.

On another note, I just dropped one of the classes I was taking today. I dropped my math class. I hated having to do it, but it was inevitable. It was going to have to happen sooner or later. I tried to keep going for as long as I could, but now we're on week 5 of school and I feel like I have barely been to that class. I realize I pay more attention to my online classes then that class and that's the only one I have on campus. The main problem that I had with the class from the beginning is that it ended at 10:20am and I had to be at work at 11. There was no way I could stay until 10:20 get all the way to work, find a parking spot, and make it in time by 11. So I would always leave early at 10. I didn't think that I should have taking the class at the other campus closer to my job. So now I will be waiting until the Fall semester to retake it. Which means I can lose my aspirations on graduating by next Spring. Which is okay. I feel better about the decision. I decided that 4 classes a semester is enough for me instead of 5. I think 5 is a little too much to handle espescially if you have a full time job. So I'm looking to be done by Fall 2012 now.

One more note is I am still pissed off that I didn't get to take my CPR class. Because of the dang snow and ice, it was cancelled so I had to reschedule for another time. I still took the two days off that I was suppose to get. I have rescheduled for the 25th of February so hopefully nothing happens to get it cancelled. It might be the last chance I get to take it before my class is over. I still have to request that day off from work which I will do tomorrow.

One last note, I'm still waiting to open me a bank account so I can do my taxes. I need $25 to be able to open one and unfortunately I don't have $25 to spare. I don't think I can open an account yet even if I wanted to because for some reason where I live I haven't been getting mail here for months and I just now called about it. I got a confirmation number so I still have to call and find out what's going on. So basically not until I can find out what's going on with my mail can I do it since they will have to mail you the card. Just too much!! But I'll get through.