New Years Eve...

It is officially New Years Eve so this will be my last post for the year. Once it turns midnight, it will be a new day, a new month, and a new year. I wish I had someone to bring in the New Year with. Maybe something will happen later but right now it looks like I will be bringing in the New Year alone again which is nothing new. I can't remember the last time I brought in the New Year with someone. It would be nice to have someone to bring it in with maybe even get a New Years kiss. I really hope this New Year will finally be my year to find love. I always wonder why I always have a hard time finding someone. It seems like the majority of everyone I know either has a boyfriend, are engaged to be married, or are married. I wonder when it will be my time. I feel like I been single a long time and I am ready to have someone I can share my life with and possibly marry in the future, be able to have a few more children with and start our own holiday traditions. I feel like all can do is daydream about having a boyfriend, being proposed to, and just being with the love of my life because it doesn't seem like it will ever happen in real life. I pray that the next guy who comes into my life is the one that I will be spending the rest of my life with. Hopefully by next Christmas, he will be in my life. I wonder if it will be someone I already know or someone I haven't met yet. Only the LORD knows but I sure can't wait to find out. I am just ready to love and be loved in return. Just to have someone who loves me unconditionally, flaws and all and someone who can't imagine me not in there life and can't imagine being with anyone else. I hope I will be blessed enough to find a guy like that and hopefully 2018 will be my year.