So annoyed...

I am still annoyed about the guy. I feel like I wasted a whole year to get no where. It's not like we only went on a couple of dates. We went on numerous dates and hung out numerous times. I really thought that it would have went somewhere. It pisses me off that I feel like I wasted a year on this guy. It's not like I am getting any younger. I am 31 years old. I would like to be in relationship with someone. Why does it seem like a hard thing to do? I have been single for going on 5 years and I am sick of it. I would like to have someone to go out with. Give me a reason to get out the house because I never have one. I feel like I don't have time to waste on guys who just waste my time. I would like to get married one day and have a few more kids. I find myself looking around on Tinder and Plenty of Fish to see if I can find any decent guys to talk to but I think I am just trying to find another guy like him but I do not think that is going to happen. He was literally everything I could have ever wanted in a man and now it seems like my chance with him is over at least for now. Who knows if this thing with this other girl is going to work out. It's not like they are exactly official or anything and it could be over in a couple of weeks or by the end of Summer. I can only hope. Then I might have another chance. Only GOD knows and I am praying for HIM to put a decent good guy in my life one of these days. It just sucks having to wait. Who knows when the wait will ever be over since its already been 5 years. I just really hope that I won't have to end another year single. I really would like to be in a relationship by the end of this year. All I can do is wait to see if that will happen but like I said before waiting sucks.