I hate my life right now.....

I hate where my life is right now. It makes me cry just thinking about it but my life truly sucks. I feel like I am trapped and can't do anything to make things better. I wish I knew what to do. I feel like I have been trying and trying and trying to change things but it doesn't seem like anything is working. First off, my job sucks I hate it so much I wish I could just quit. Incompetent bosses who don't care about the employees and things keep getting changed to make things harder on us instead of making it easier. Plus the pay sucks I can barely live on the money I get every two weeks. I feel like I work my butt off for little pay and have nothing to show for it. I have always been thankful for my job but I have officially been there for 4 years as of 12/7 and it has been time for me to go. I feel like I am in prison at that place I have applied to over 100 jobs this year trying to get out of there and I can't get anything. I can't believe how hard it is to find something but I am going to continue to try until something comes my way. I just want a Monday-Friday job so I can have my weekends free to be able to do things. Its hard when working every other weekend to plan to do things I would also like to be able to have my holidays off and of course better pay I feel I am a hard working person and deserve a lot more than what I am making now. Is it asking for too much? Another problem I am having is with men. I don't need one but it would be nice to have one. Someone to be there for me, someone to talk to, someone to be able to go out with and spend time with. Just someone special for me. It sucks being alone all the time. It would be nice to be able to get dressed up and go somewhere. I just wish I had someone to spend time with and love and adore just someone especially for me. I don't know what's going on with the guy I like. I feel like I'm in limbo. We have talked to each other for a month, have hung out with him a couple times but he doesn't seem to be interested in me as I am in him. I thought a person who is interested in you usually asks you when your free or the next time you can see each other or even ask you out on a date and he hasn't done that. When I text him sometimes it takes him forever to write me back or he doesn't at all. I don't know if that means he is busy or just ignoring me. I really liked him but all I can do now is leave him alone. I feel like I have started to get my hopes up over this guy which is depressing me because things are going no where with him so I am letting myself down by expecting him to want me. It was nice while it lasted having someone to care and think about but now its just back to lonely me. Another problem I'm having is finding a place to live. It seems like everything cost so much. My price range is $550 and less and it is hard to find a place for that much. I have found a couple of houses but apartments are hard to find. If I could just get me a better job with better pay so that I would be able to afford something decent. I'm not going to be able to move for a couple more months anyway and I am still on that waiting list for an apartment. I have been on that waiting list for months, over 4 months and still no call it sucks just waiting but I am still hoping by February I will be out this place and in my own place whether I can get into that apartment or I'm going to have to find something else. I miss being on my own so much. My life is in such a horrible place right now I just hope that by this time next year I will be in a better place in my life. A decent place to live, a better job with better pay and someone to share my life with. All I can do is pray for better days but I wish I knew how long it will take for things to get better. It is just hard to think positive when it seems like everything is going wrong. It would be nice to get a Christmas miracle like in the movies and that everything that I wish and pray for would start coming true. Wishful thinking on my part.