One of those times...

I was just thinking this is one of those times where I wish I had a boyfriend right now. I was thinking about taking a trip this summer to Cincinnati for the Cincinnati Music Fest. I would have went to the Friday and Saturday show. Leave Friday morning and find something to do that day before getting ready for the show then on Saturday go to King's Island until it was time to get ready for the show and I would go home Sunday. So I might miss out on a fun weekend trip since I am manless. Unless I can find a friend who wants to go with me but I wish I didn't have to think of someone to go with. If only I had a boyfriend I could go ahead and plan the trip. When am I ever going to get a boyfriend? The lonely life sucks especially when I could be getting out the house and having some fun. Its very rare that I get to go out and do something fun and this would be the perfect getaway. I'm just sick and tired of being by myself all the time. There has got to be someone out there for me somewhere. This waiting is killing me. I have been waiting for 5 years can the wait please be over soon. I was honestly thinking if I wanted to date again but I don't know if I should date more than one person at a time or date only one person. I feel like the last time I dated one person it didn't end with us in a relationship which I figured is the point in dating so maybe I should date more than one person at a time but if I did that then eventually I would have to choose who I would want to be with and I don't want to lead anyone on considering that's what happened to me and we see how that turned out. So I think it would be a good idea to date one person even though it backfired on me the last time. If I can find me someone to date I would be good to go. So far I haven't really found anyone interesting to date. I have been on both Tinder and POF and so far I haven't had any luck. Tinder is hard to find decent guys. It may be a handful of guys that I found interesting on there but no one I can go on a date with. I haven't found anyone on POF worth my time considering when I first joined the site a year ago there was plenty of interesting guys now not so much. I'm not going to give up because like I said there has to be a guy out there for me somewhere. I will be happy when that day comes because I feel like I am a happy person but I feel like there is a piece of me missing and that is a man to share my life with. Once I finally have that then I will feel complete.